TheWolf

I like the above repleis, but i must apologise a i am nit too well qt the omownt.

p.s- i like the qoute caldus, even if i canlt understand it at hte monment

im sorry guys.

Ima bout to tae another 19 pareecomalm ,wish me '.luck gutys.

i', m gonna need it, i don't know whats aheadd. 0X

well it's the ney year, and i;vr taken 18 paracetimol adn a lite of braandy.

I klive in England anyway

I know it's a game, but it's a game i'm tired of playing.

I was diagnosed with depression when i was about 14 and found counciling and medication (seroxat 50mg) didn't help atall, so I stopped it and started smoking weed to ease the pain.

It was an escape (which I no longer use). I am looking for a more permanent fix.

don't know what has happened to me. I've realised that I'm a complete loser. I don't have any friends at all, I'm still a virgin at 19 years of age.

I can't get out of bed in the morning- there's nothing to get up for. I'm finding this really hard to admit, as I feel embarrassed about it all.

I don't know what to do. No one likes me. People think I'm a complete freak. It's as if I don't have to say; people find me boring. I just feel as if I'm a complete waste of space and am thinking of comitting suicide.

I want there to be a cure for my illness, hence why I have posted.

But it seems there is not, thereforeeee death is the only option.

No it isn't. It will bring an end to this eternal pain, so it won't be a waste.

I'm short and ugly, and have nothing to live for- that will never change.

SO you think I should commit suicide with someone else aswell?

I've got nothing to live for though. And I have no friends.

..It's New Years eve and i'm alone again. Just me in my house, no one who cares.

I just want to die, I hate this ugly world.

bump

I told her I can't be in contact with her anymore,

and that i hope she would understand.

Was this a good thing to do? What do I do now?

I'm deeply in love with a girl, but she loves someone else...

I know you guys are gonna say get out there and meet other girls, but I can't do that- I don't find any other girls attractive, only the one i'm in love with. She is all I ever wanted.

Firstly i'd like to say a ver big Thankyou for your kind words everyone, but I really didn't enjoy my day.

I don't look forward to anything anymore, I don't enjoy anything- I used to love this time of the year. I can very much relate to you shorty4ever15. I look at death as a means of escape from this pain.

Maybe I am loved SB, but I never feel it, no one ever makes it clear.

I don't know why, but I don't look forward to anything anymore.

Not Christmas, not my birthday nothing

If only you knew how much I understand you. I understand those nights alone, when you see all of those people, out there having fun. I understand your pain of feeling like not many people care. I understand all those nights you feel are wasted because you don't feel like you belong.

 

I understand.

 

I wish to you, from the infinite depth of my soul, that your loneliness ends.

 

Good luck, friend.

 

Etienne

I was sad to read that someone else is also in this position, yet relieved at the same time.

Why does it have to be like this- being the one on the outside,looking in

...it's been like this for as long as i can remember, and I can't see it changing. I'm not happy living like this, and need an end to all this pain.

I don't think there is a specific underlying cause. Family life is ok, I work fulltime. No specific situations causing grief- I have been through alot, but it's not that.

I suppose looking in the mirror get's me down most. I really don't want to live looking like this. It's horrible.

Please help me,

I am finding it really difficult to carry on. I don't know where to start. I am all alone and often find tears falling from my eyes uncontrolably.

There's no one to talk to, no one to care. There never has been.

I feel really ugly all the time and can't bare to look at myself in the mirror.

Everyone else seems so beautiful. It's Friday night and i'm all alone, again.

I've been trying to be the best person I can be, but I can't go on much longer like this. It's really hurts to watch everyone else being loved.

How old are you & what is tyrettes?!

...your getting me worried! At leat we're no alone, we're in this together!

No it didn't help.

And no, i didn't watch that program. When was it on, what channel and is it on again?

Don't bother with the talk therapy larajenkins4... i had it. They just try and tell you that the bad things won't happen. But we just can't take that risk .

Once she said to me try and make the bad thing be that you get a cold next week when you come and see me.....

an guess what- i had a cold the next week!

Yes- it will get worse unfortuantely. Only you can stop it. All you have to do is convince yourself that these bad things won't happen. I havn't managed it yet.... and i have had it since age 5 ...

Switch the light on and off like 10 times or so, touch things more than once, repeating things basically- or something bad will happen.

Wlecome to the Dark side

What sort of bad things do you think are going to happen?

They put me on seroxat but it made me suicidalso i stopped taking it. So i have it pretty bad ...trapped in this life

Yes you have got OCD, i have got it too!

Good news, the Wolf has been ''completely forgiven''!

Face it, you were an a-hole.

 

She probally really does believe that your sorry, but that doesnt change the way she feels.

 

She has told you no, and what your doing now borders on stalking.

 

Find someone else, and dont be nice next time.

She hasn't said ''NO'' and in no way whatsoever does this'' border on stalking''.

So the flowers are a bad idea then? Or how about sending them, and moving on?

I appreciate it may have done permanent damage, i just want her to know that i didn't mean what i said and that i'm really sorry, and i'll never be ''mean'' again if she gives me another chance.

I can't apologise to her face to face as she lives quite far away and whenever i go up there to try and see her, she is never in (or she is but doesn't answer)....and i have no way of organizing it with her if she doesn't pick my calls up!

As a result, i was thinking of sending her an exspensive bunch of roses (Yes, The Wolf has found employment ) with a simple but effective note saying ''SORRY''! with no name or anything.

Then the ball would be in her court, if she didn't want to speak then fine, at least i tried right?