DutchDoor

What a horrid ending to almost 7 years together. I cannot believe the MESS of a woman, you left me for. MESS! DUI's, drug charges, possible jail time..at least rehab. It's something out of a nightmare. Aren't we a little too old for this crap? I had no idea that you will willing to throw everything away in order to babysit this loser. I know you are obsessed with her. I know it's lust. I know her body, I know her sex appeal. But believe me, that will wear off, and you will be left with her ADHD, her alcoholism, her addiction to her meds, her not ever having a drivers license again, her basic totally dependent existence. A part of me knows you are getting a boner from this. You want to be that knight on the white steed. I was way too strong for you...a quality you used to admire. I am a good person, who was caught up in your vacuum. You sucked me in, ruined my self esteem. I supported your ass for a year, and this is what you do? You owe me tons of money, that now I have to just write off as an expensive lesson. F You. Right now, I currently hate you. Right now, I hope this loser wigs out and either goes to jail...which she deserves, or sobers up and realizes what an enabling sponge you are. I know you don't believe I will go full No Contact and disappear. I know a part of you thinks you can contact me on your terms, on a whim...when you need to vent or need some money. You have no friends. I was the best friend you ever had. Right now, you are so infatuated with her 38D chest, you arent thinking about a week, a month down the road. At some point, this dysfunctional trainwreck of a relationship you are in, is going to crash and burn. I don't HOPE that it will, I just KNOW that it will. And guess what? For the first time in over 7 years, I WILL NOT BE THERE. EVER. You have hurt me beyond comprehension. The thought of another man right now makes me want to vomit, thanks for that! I hope you are enjoying your hot drunken sex, taking her to the courthouse, awaiting her possible sentencing. Man, look at those words. How screwed up is that? At our age?? I really do hate you. As mean and rotten as this sounds, I hope this woman completely F's you up. I may or may not know about it. It may not happen for quite a long time. I let you ruin my life. Partially my fault...and I am willing to own up to it and never let a man do this to me again. But YOU? You...will never, ever learn.