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1st day of NC. It was actually easier than I thought. My emotions are going back and forth and I've been writing them down. I actually feel good about myself too and I feel motivated. I was looking at pics from before I met you and I had been so much more fit... and that's what I'm going to do, I'm going to lose the weight I gained.

I miss you and I regret treating you like until you were finally pushed to the limit and I couldn't take it back. You said you don't want to talk to me and that we should learn to be our own person, that this is just something we need to do. I will try not to speak to you like you asked, even if it's so difficult because for many years, you were there every single day. I hate the words you used to convince me that we should both stop talking though. It didn't sound like it came from you. We've been together for so long that I at least know that much. It sounded like someone else's advice to you, and I hate that you couldn't come to the decision on your own, and that whoever that person was, their words were enough for you to completely give up on us.