Hi to all, I am 20 yrs old and i have a boyfriend of two years. He is a very laid back and relaxed guy who never gets angry at anything. I often blame him for being emotionless and despite the fact that i know he loves me, his lack of showing care and appreciation bothers me often.
About 2 months ago a friend of mine kissed me goodnight. I did not expect it or see it coming, but we kissed and then i stopped him. I chose not to tell my boyfriend because I still wanted to be friends with my friend.My boyfriend and I had been quarreling a lot lately about his lack of care and concern, mostly me starting the fights. Also, he wanted to make sure we were kept our relationship fun and casual (but exclusive) and didn't get too serious because we were so young. I took this as a lack of love from him, which i now regret seeing that way. Anyway, last night i told him about what happened between my friend and I, 2 months after the fact. He didn't say much but that he didn't know why i didnt' tell him sooner and that he didn't believe it happened as I told him. I felt bottled up and sick from holding it from him so long and I told him to clear my head and our relationship from the toxins it was building. He said he loved me and that we would not break up, but i cried and cried at seeing him sad and him not wanting me to hug him or kiss him. How do I right this wrong? How do I make things good again for us? What do I say or do? He knows I am terribly sorry. I just want thing to be good again.
