OMG dewonarose, your post literally made me cry. I can feel the pain and anguish you are suffering. I'm so sorry this is happening to you. I really don't know what else to say, other than I am sorry for you.
I know how bad you are hurting right now, from experiencing the pain first hand. You might not want to hear this, but it will get better, as difficult as that is to comprehend at this point, it will.
So keep coming to eNotAlone and spill your heart out. Write down your thoughts and fears, vent, get angry, let it all out. We'll try to help in any way we can.
I do hope you can seek counseling for yourself, it really, really does help...
Again, I am so sorry he is putting you through this hell, you truly sound like a good person and certainly undeserving of the disrespect he is showing you.
God Bless.