I have lost the love of my life, my friend, my lover, and my best mate!
I was with my ex for 15 years! We met at College at the age of 17 and split in October 2001!
We have a 9 year old daughter and I get as much access as I want to see her and me and my ex are still very good friends!!!
The problem is that she doesn't want me back! We had some fantastic times together and got on so well, it was untrue. Then, the last 5 years it just seemed to be slipping a bit. I played a lot of sports and worked hard, so are time together was dwindling, along with our relationship.
If I cut to the chase, it got worse and worse and we eventually decided to split up. She had left on 2 other occasions, both times, she came back and wanted to chat and both times I welcomed her with open arms, and wed have a cry and be ok for a while.
This time, I want HER back and she doesn't want to know, although we get on so well, it is really hard to understand!
The, last week, after been split for 15 months, she went with a guy at a school reunion and it 'gutted' me. I felt sick, i couldn't eat for 2 days, it broke my heart!!!
She as always said its not about me, its her, she doesnt want another man, which is fair enough. But she is now seeing this guy next weekend, travelling half the country to stay over for 2 nights and its killing me!!!!
I have hinted at whether she would come back on many occasion and she just seems to get further away the more I hint. I have never actually said "please come home" though!
Sorry to go on, but I just want her backb and I dont know how i can do it. Im a very confident guy as a rule, very outgoing and outspoken and I still make her laugh a lot and we trust each other so much as friends, but she gives nothing away. She is a kinda closed book type of person anyway, so im struggling to find a way to get to her.
Anyway, I want her back so much and god alone knows what I can do!!! any suggestions
xo
Hurtslikehell
