DemonicRefuser

yeah, i did move on.. i just google'd my username and found some crazy * * * * i did on the net a long ass time ago..

^^ Hah... so many years later.. what the hell was i thinking.. honestly.. * * * !

It started 5 years ago when we first talking on the net, well 3 years into our online chatting things got personal..we started talking about meeting eachother, but we were never able to cause of the obstacles like high school and jobs kept us trapped..in april 24th, i took an airplane down here(WV) to meet here, exactly one month from that day i went to california and took her with me, and i grabbed all my belongings and moved here..to be with her, well we had the most awesomist relationship, i loved her so much and i still do, its august now, and shes saying she wants a break from all this, and she wants us to be broken up, i know i should respect her for that..but deep down it kills me, and i have been thinking about suicide...cause i have nothing in california, and ill i have here is her, i know not to tell her that ive been thinking of suicide cause i dont want her to think shes stuck with me cause of that...all i know is i want her back..and if i cant have her...ever then i will probably most likely kill myself...she is my only true love..she will always be my true love...but thats just to me..