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swtangel980
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wow great poems!! thanks for the help i really enjoyed it i will try hard to fight back to this addiction and one day i will be in your place helping people like you are now. i go to this website that helps revoerying addicts if you wanted to check it out link removed
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lol yeah it is a good sign i guess..thanks for your reply!!
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this is definitly my poem. and i definitly wrote it about me and how i feel. i actually wrote this a couple weeks ago and are just now posting it. my thoughts still the same and the addiction is kiking harder and harder i would love to read some of your poems on it too its great to be able to share!
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one day without meth
is a living hell
but it beats
sitting in jail
my bodys so tense
my heart is so sore
and all i want is
for someone to give me more
Why does my body
contradict my brain
why can't i think straight
so i can stay sane!
I have all this help around
and i still cant deal
i dont belong here
thats how i feel
Maybe one day
I'll pick up a blade
press hard on my wrist
and my life will fade
On my vein is pressure
my whole wrist is sore
I gasp as i see a gapin wound
and a blood-drenched floor
i feel weak
as it runs out of me
the meth demon was here
it wouldnt let me be
As my life is still hangin on
i think what was so terribly wrong?
I wish to myself
Nobody else will sing my sad song.
I feel my life slipping away
as i slowly hit my knees
I see the trees blowing
and feel a gentle breeze
I hear a screan
from so very far
they grab my lifeless body
and put me in a car
Rushing, Rushing, Rushing
everythings so fast
everything ever good
is now in the past
I hear a doctor
and the only thing he said
was Ma'amim sorry
but she's dead
How could i do this
to everyone who had so much love
i wish they knew Im flying
Im now as free as a dove
my body no longer
fiends and aches
i no longer get sweats
or the shakes
I feel so good
im all free from meth
that demon whore
who brought me to my death
All my life
my pain was self-inflicted
all because
i was addicted
But that first day
I had 2 decisions
i caused the sleepless nights
and the scary visions
The creepy sounds
and the smoke all around
look at me now
im nowhere to be found
mommy and daddy
i wish i could pay you back
for the money i stole
to get me a sack
and the pain ive caused
i know what you went thro wasnt so great
but kno the things i did
was not out of hate
I was just blind
by how far i was
I wish i could remember
by my mind is fuzz
Im sorry to everyone
I hurt or stole from
Just so that I-
I always had some
Im sorry to myself
for not quitting for good
but the addiction
doesnt let you do what you should
I hope you know
before you dare
dont try it ever
cause tina dont kare!
cuz shell hold u in
with such great power
shell kill your soul
and make you sour
look at me now
only a empty soul
meth left me empty
and stuck in a hole
Dont think you are different
no matter how many people bitchin
about how it wont hurt you
cuz theres no fighting back to addiction!
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wow thank everyone for all the advise..i am still spotting...i figured it would go away or get heavier into a period but it has not. yes, i am younger than 18 i was not planning on having a child but im still worried about it if i am pregnant. i have most all of the symptoms you named. i will have to see a doctor or something soon. thank you for everything!
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i have miss 2 periods.. and i have had all the symptoms of being pregnant and everything i even FEEL pregnant which is probably not the best sign but stil.. today when i went to the bathroom i found little spots like it was not ALOT like when you usually start but very small spots of blood or w/e...is that my period or what is happening?? am i still pregnant?? please help if you have any info on this!! im REALLY worried!
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you know i dont even think that he wants the sex or if he is even looking for a relationship he could have just been being nice. Maybe he wants a good friendship that could lead to more in the future i really dont know what he thinks or how he feels about the whole thing i dont even know if he knows that i have feelings for him..maybe one day ill get up the guts to talk to him..
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thats very true..i am not sure if he does or not. only time will tell that he seems to be pretty attached to me tho seemings he invites me over and he picks me up(he lives about 30 mins away) and takes me home and everything buys me all kinds of shit.. but i may just be mistaking niceness with flirting..and oh, his child is his stepchild not biological the girl he was with had a baby while they were together and he fell in love with her so he still considers her his!
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the pains u get can be from alot of things. cervical cancer to cist on the ovaries maybe u should go see a doctor..i have missed 2 periods so far and i need to take a test because unfortunately i have been smoking and drinking and doing drugs again which is in no way healthy for me OR the kid!!...i havent really thought about my decision since i really dont know if im pregnant or not...u should really get off the birthcontrol if u think u are pregnant..i got pregnant on it and i kept taking it i stopped taking it a week before i had my miscarriage..i believe that is what killed it..since then i have not taken one single bc pill again!! so be careful go get a doctors approvial before trying it!
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sorry thats *22 yr old!
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i love your poem made me feel really good.. i am 15 and me and this 2 yr old is like talking i guess..we are not together or madly in love like the poem but still it hits home..great poem your very talented writer!
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ive been with older guys than me and actually i have never been with anyone my age before and me and him are pretty good friends, he has a daughter, shes cool. yeah, i do think hes looking for a life mate but he always says age is but a number..so i think that his intentions are good..i just dont want to be look down upon for dating someone almost 7 yrs older than me...or people look down upon him..is it worth is if they do?
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is 15 and 22 that bad?..him being 22 about to be 23 and you being 15 and in a couple months 16?!
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this is a poem about a drug addiction. reply with comments good or bad. i was just trying to get my point accross there really isnt any hidden meaning in my poem.
Remember me, your bestfriend meth!
Hello everyone my names Tina
or jib, glass, crank, ice, or meth
I am your very bestfriend, promise
We'll be bestfriends till death
We will chill everyday
and stay up together at night
We will be together always
and never have a fight
cuz I'll be here when *beep* goes down
I'll always be here for you
Are you believing all this?
good, thats what I want you to do
Gain all your trust
be dependent on me
and when your tired of TinA
I won't ever let you be
Your head will never be clear
your heart will be ice
you wont ever be the same
you wont love or be nice
You are now my victim
Im so glad you couldn't see
There is only one way out
and your life is my fee
I know you loved me
How could i lie?
But i didnt Dear Friend
I told you I'd be here till you die
So your laying on your deathbed
Smoking your meth
cursing my name
cause im bring you death
Nobody will come to your funeral
Nobody cares
People tried to help you
but now nobody dares
You beat up your mom
stole from your dad
your life is all mine now
isn't it sad?
You killed your wife
and unborn kid
initially you killed yourself
that is exactly what you did
I seduced you with my sparkles
and kept you with addicted
every word was lies
it was all fiction
I dont love you at all
I want to see you die
your life is but one
of the many who cry
your not special to me
not in any way
your so doped up that
in your own bed you can't lay
soon they'll come and repo your *beep*
but you'll still have me
you know what ive done here?
you still dont see??
I know you love me but
I need to leave you alone
i left you penniless
not even a phone
I'll leave you be for awhile
you'll come running back
they always do
just trying to score a 20 sack
And then I'll be with you
your bestfriend once more
your heart hurts
and your body's sore
Until one day I take your veins
you take the needle and push it in
I know your Christian
and this is a sin
I'll run through your veins
with such a wild pace
I'll smile and laugh
all in your face
Your mine all mine
I'll be with you till death
remember my name
im your bestfriend, Meth
your bodies racing
and your head feels high
you feel the greatest rush
and then you die
your heart explodes
all in your chest
you were so good
you were one of my best!
When you die
it's not heaven you see
It's burning flames of hell
and of cource, ME
I forgot to tell you
remember me, i was the thing you was datin
besides meth and tina,
my names also satin!
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THANK you Jim!! that was really sweet!!...im a female i would want myne smaller if i had to chose. but if i really had to chose i wish it wouldnt really matter and every guy would jsut look into their eyes becuz WE ARE HUMANS!! we dont look at your penis's to decide if we want you or not so dont decide by our breasts!!
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ok, wow...both of yall have such good points..now im really confused...becuase both make so much sense get him and his gf feels awful and then not get him and me feel awfull....which is better??.....i have a feeling the answer is clear im jsut blind to it.
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you really cant help how you feel you can help your actions but not your emotions. Just think about it if your boyfriend was to tell you that the girl he used to mess with messedwith his bestfriend andthat he was really hurt by that, how would you feel? i suggest just letting it be there isnt anythign else to do if you want to keep your man. Just keep your mind on how much you actually like ur boyfriend and how much you liked the other guy. I suggest no more games, it sucks when people play games with you why would u want to do it to somebody else and have it back fire on you like this time!
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i dont know if i can 'just' be friends with him hes just too apealing for me. i dont think i can jsut watch him be with her.its either all or nothing at this point for me maybe its best to leave it at nothing..
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i really shouldnt go for him i know..thats bad...but i feel so drawn to him..i guess its nature want what u cant have i wanna respect his girlfriend but in another way i want to just say the hell with her..i dont know shes not my friend she has never made an effort to be nice to me. but i know i know. karma is a bitch. i guess ill wait it out see where it goes
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his gf would be PISSED..i would hate to be her if i ended taking him from her..lol..i dont even know her she could be really cool and they seem to have a good thing going i dont wanna be resposible for breaking that up but i REALLY like hiM!!
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i am really confuesed..i have this guy in one of my classes...hes so kute. and i really am crushing him hard which is weird cuz he is like my age when i usually date like 2-6 yrs above my age. so this is a good thing for me. and the first couple days i was like hell yeha i really liek him then BAM his girlfriend is in our class and i didnt know it they dont act all bf/gf like i dont know i guess they do now that i know but he just makes me feel like he likes me. i could be wrong but i think he likes me too i dont know should i make a move? i dont want to do the wrong thing here that would be terribly embarrasing!
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i think it does.. i wouldnt push it tho considering she does have a boyfriend..wait until she breaks up with him and then you can be all over her lol.. im in the same situation i like this guy who has a gf...sucks huh!?!
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i left out a lil bit of the story..i have miss 2 periods so i ThInK im pregnant..i had been using quite an amount of drugs in my first month of pregnancy. when i missed my first period and the thought that i may be pregnant crossed my mind i quite the drugs, drinking, and smoking cig. i dont do anything to hurt my child i am afraid that already my baby could be damaged becuase in the first few months of development it is the most important. So if i was to give my baby up for adoption it may have some complications. I dont know if i could live with myself to have to hand MY bad choice to someone else but also i dont know if i could have an abortion it would just kill me inside taking another life, but i am struggle to get thro school much less a regular child but a child with a disability...i just couldnt do it..
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hope so!!