Your emptiness sounds like how I feel when I get really upset, but can't find anything to blame:
I start cursing at myself and I say things like "How could you be so *&*# (adjective here)..." and "What's wrong with you!".
I'm not really sure why I act this way, but I think I'm beginning to understand it.
I've noticed that I tend to feel very alone when this happens. Do you feel anything else when you get the emptiness?
Your boyfriend sounds like a great guy and you certainly like him. Have you ever been in a relationship like this one before?
How long have you felt confused about your feelings like this?
As far as real_life's suggestion, I know it's true for me that I have to open my heart up and thank God for what I have. Until recently, though, those sorts of words have seemed like no more than that -- words. I have begun to grasp what they are, though, and it has, in truth, helped.
On the lighter side -- Love can be really confusing, so it could be that you're a great girlfriend: really in love and, thereforee, really confused.
I'd write more, but I'd like to hear more from you first, skittlesfae. You seem to be able to search yourself pretty well.
Please write more when you can. Hang in there.
