Sorry girl ...but you need professional help!
Your actions and thoughts are those of a drama queen, liar and serial cheater.
1. You cheated on your 1st husband with your current partner, and now you've cheated on him!
2. You confessed you had the affair ...but you prolonged the torture for him, (and the guilt for you) by not disclosing the WHOLE story. Really, why did you bother to even tell him at all? Do you enjoy torturing this man by adding further 'images' for him to deal with? What are you going to tell him next ...that your lover was with a party of 5? You should have told him EVERYTHING from the start!
3. Do you wonder why your current partner was so forgiving in the beginning? I'll tell you why ...it's because he himself is probably suffering from guilt over the 'dubious' circumstances of how HE and YOU got together!
I bet your 1st husband wasn't as forgiving, and rightly so.
Get yourself some help ASAP ...before you go and do it all over again!
