You said it made your day just to hear my voice. You said you cared and that you’ll always be there. Wondering was I being selfish to the fact that you didn’t really care. Or was it I that didn’t want to care. Did I care that you didn’t want me, had your fun then left me. Or is it because I tried to change my whole perception to fit you where you didn’t belong all along. Was it me trying to fill that space. The space he left untamed. Am I really angry because you don’t want me. Or was it every time I looked at you, I wished it was him. Every moment, every second, every breath, every thought. It wasn’t you I wanted it was him. Was it that you didn’t want me or is it that I didn’t want you to want me. Every laugh, every smile, every kiss, every hug, every intimate detail of the life we lead . Was it meant to be or were you just a filler. Did I want you to want me or did I need you to want me. To take my mind off that empty space. The space you couldn’t fill the space you couldn’t touch. Was it that I wanted you to want me. Now don’t get me wrong I’m still a bitter * * * * * because you couldn’t be a MAN. The lie you told I seen right through you didn’t want me cause I didn’t want you.
