Mmm'kay. So here's my story.
Up until this year, I've been the most anti-social person anyone's ever known. Probably one of the less attractive ones, too. Something kicked in for me though, this year. I've been brushing my teeth, my hair, doing everything right to look good.
About a month and a half ago was my first outting with a girl. She asked me if I wanted to go ice skating with her and her friends, and it ended up being just us. We held hands and everything and it was great. Incredible, even.
Over the last month I've been visiting her and catching movies with her and eating dinner with her and all sorts of exciting things. We'd lean into eachother when watching movies, cuddle and stuff, and we even went to a concert once where I almost built up the nerve to kiss her, but I didn't and I feel really bad about it.
[i know I had the perfect chance and I missed it, she leaned torward me and I paniced and started talking]
I really want to get close with her before she has to leave for college, which is in about six months, and I haven't even kissed her yet. I feel like I'm wasting so much time of what could be something wonderful. Not that our current relationship isn't- just that, that whole boyfriend-girlfriend thing really sounds like something I would want with her.
I've never kissed anyone before, and I don't even know what I would do. She doesn't know that I've always been the anti-social boy that always sat in the back of the room. She doesn't know that I've never kissed anyone ever.
My fear is that I would do something stupid and she wouldn't understand, or if she did understand, she wouldn't think of me the same way anymore.
I just need some sort of strategy, or amazing date, or a nice movie. Anything. I need to find another moment where I have the chance.
I know that she likes me back, I just don't know how to return the affection.
So I guess that's my real question. How does one accomplish the "First kiss"? And is there anything I'm supposed to do? I feel so hopeless, but I love her.
