starburst_eryn

and yes i started eating again yesterday

thank you all so much for your advice and support. i've been reading through your replies these past couple of days and really reflecting on them, and i've come to realize so much. what's made me want to be soo skinny are those 6' tall supermodels and being able to see their ribcages and so desperately wanting to look like that because i see that as feeling beautiful and not only that but just being in high school where everyone is judged and some guys don't want to go out with me because i do have curves and i'm not a petite little female. i have so much more to offer with my curves, i have a beautiful mind and spirit. but i realize now that it doesn't take a size 0 to be beautiful or have guys want to go out with you because i love my curves, i love being able to wear a pair of jeans and have hips and wear a top that shows some of my meat and that guys are so immature at my age and someone special is going to come along and love my curves. i was just tripping out because i had a really bad case of guy rejection that day. eating healthy wouldn't hurt me and that's what i'm gonna do, but there's no way in hell i'm ever going to be a size 0, i love my 9. thank you all so much for you support and advice

thanks all for your input.

and it just makes me feel even worse when girls who are size 1 are like, "i'm on a diet, i'm so fat" and they show me their stomach and it's completely flat

they've said it to my face

i just don't feel attractive at all...and all the guys at my school say i have a great personality, but no one will go out with me because i'm not super skinny...that's what all guys my age like...or at least it seems like it

i exercise 6 days a week because i am in tennis. we usually do cardio 3 times a week and weight lifting 2 times a week, and then on the weekends i play tennis. i consider my diet healthy...i stay away from junk food, i eat in moderation and have plenty of fruit and veggies. i've tried to diet healthy. often times when i starve myself, i end up binge eating A LOT.

hey all, maybe this is just really shallow of me...but i wish i was one of those girls who wore a size 0 and had absolutely no fat on them. i wish i was one of those girls who could wear anything and not have visible fat on any part of my body. i'm 16 and i struggled with my weight when i was younger, i was overweight as a child and got active when i got into my teens and now i'm 'average'. i'm about 5'5" and i wear a pant size 9. i don't have an eating disorder, but i've thought about it so much. i haven't eaten anything in 2 days...i need help, but i so badly want to be a stick thin girl...i don't know what to do....