Hey guys,
I'm new to this board but I've read some other threads and there seems to be some good insight. Maybe you can help me!
Here's the story:
Me and my boyfriend (please note that this is a same-sex relationship) of about 14 months have suffered thru a rough patch since October. We broke up on Monday morning and I made the mistake of continuously calling him to beg him to reconsider. He was steamed with me, and changed his number yesterday. Of course there has been no contact since, other than a couple e-mails I sent him yesterday afternoon.
The first 8 or 9 months of our relationship were golden. It was all very natural and "easy." He went to military training for two months in April and May, 500 miles away, but we still remained close and I visited him a couple times to make the time go faster. It crashed after an incident that really had a negative affect on me. It was like the implosion of a fairytale. In retrospect now, the whole thing seriously diminished my strength and a number of problems started arising thereafter. I went back to my old ways of being cold, stoic, and unfeeling. Things became less natural for us. Before, we would take hands easily and enjoy our time together. After, we would drive for miles and miles with no intimacy at all.
I've sought out help for my inner demons and I've made serious progress. But now that the whole thing has exploded, I just feel extremely down and out. I know it is not good to do this, but I have embraced the idea that, maybe, after a couple weeks or maybe a bit longer, we can come back together and patch things up. I love him, and I know he loves me, and I just can't jibe with the idea that we will be apart from here on out. My ex called our relationship "unhealthy," he said that while he loves me, us being together right now isn't right. I wish I knew what he meant.
Can anyone offer some thoughts??
