zach

i am staying strong i told her i need time on my own if its ment to be it will be

i replyed couldent help myself ,mabey i have fuked it now

i dont know ,i miss all the things she is saying to but i dont know if i want the hurt again i feel lost with out her thou really want her i think we are so alike,and stubbon

just had this email off her ............

I miss making love to you, I miss kissing you!! I miss cuddling you, I miss loving you, I miss how you think you are always right, I miss your smile and your laugh, I miss you chacing me with the camera!! I miss the dinners and how my cooking aint as good as yours I miss working on ya car and doing things together and having a laugh, listerning to old tunes!! I miss the totsy rub and the rubbs, us cuddling in bed and waking up and giving you a kiss good bye knowing I will be seeing you in a bit...

Going to stick to this NC now ie staying away etc i have told her how i feel ,i really hope she happy you know its strange how i am feeling i am glad to get away from the hurt ,but i also hope that shes happy i am going to keep going forward

i miss taking care of her mainly,

i feel sad and i miss her

i seen her as i was coming out of gym last night,we had to walk past each other she told me she hated me i said i dont hate her,and we kept walking does this mean NC is broken i feel sad today ?

i seen her as i was coming out of gym last nite and she said i hate you i said hate me all you want i dont hate you and we walked our seprate ways does this mean NC is broken and i have to start again

thanks everyone your great,i do miss her alot but i have to make a stand and show her she cart hurt me anymore ,i wont let her she needs to relise what shes done her self

mate its a horible feeling and theres not much you can do when they hit you i am a boxer and even i was scared of her becuse i couldent hit back protect myself she played on that used the fact i was desent enough to walk away when she went for me it hurts to see someone you love hurt you over and over gutted

yes i will just stay strong, i hope she misses me and sees sense.

thanks i mean i really want her but i want what she was with me ,some mates of mine say i can never get back what i had and shes done to much to me ,i just dont want the heartless nastyness ,i just wish she was missing me and she opened her eyes to how she has being, carnt beleve she would say she hated me ,what does she hate me for becuse i am doing what she wanted me to do and getting on with my life.?i mean i am 23 and shes 29 shes being like a child all of this started going wrong when i started modling and got a well paid job she a control freak ,but i miss all of the happy good things that we did together wish she could see

some of you would have read my previous post,broken up my fiance after she did a lot of hurtfull things to me,as well as being violent towards me i really miss her but after being told that she dident love me and she wanted me to get on with my life i have left her to it and started NC at weekend i love her very much but i carnt stand her heartless behavor and the constant nastyness and how she thinks that everything must be her way and i must deal with it,i stoped contacting her ,for two reasons to aviod any more hurt and so she would relise she tried to call me and i let it ring here is what she has

sent to me in email in order i havent replyed

1,is my chain still under warranty, I need it fixing!!(sent yestoday about a platnum neakless i bought her)

2, WHY? (sent to me today dont know what she means)

3,MY LAST GOOD BYE i HATE YOU, ALL i DID WAS LOVE YOU AND YOU ABUSED ME AND USED ME AND ALL I DID WAS LOVE YOU NOW I HATE YOU, BUT THANKS(sent today i still havent replyed and to say i have used and abused her is crazy) now what do i do,shall i reply or is she just wanting a reactio shall i stay stong or give in HELP PLEASE

going though the same thing at moment finding it hard doing NC but i and you have to do it and get on with life try and keep busy and if they dont relise what they have lost at least you have moved on and you may not want them any more

just read your story and it sounds like you have dragged your wife down to the gutter your selfish

mate take a step back, before you mess your head up if you really want her back you need to do what i am doing at the moment and get on with your life,other wise you will just end up bring yourself down and you wont be able to handle the rejection,just get on with your life and let her chase you ,and if she doesent end up relising and thinking, OH NO I HAVE LOST HIM ,at least you are moving go and have fun enjoy your life as i am and what will be will be mate ,dont start playing games ie songs and this that and other just give her space dont ring her or do anything she broken up with you so she wants space give it her ...................i am doing the same after being with someone for so long even if they break up with you they will miss ya

its hard ,i miss my ex fiance too, and recently tried to make it work, but to much has happened, and i left her i do want her ,and i do love her but i carnt stand how hurtfull she is too much has happened,and i am sure to much has happened between you two,but what i am doins moving on and thats what you need to do,what doesent kill you in this life makes you stronger,i also think a hell of alot like you ,do they miss me do they think about me its hard ,but what will be will be and in the mean time take a deep breath and move on and remember your better than the hurt ,as for the person your with now try not to get to deep have fun for know and if he makes you happy keep seeing him but dont mess his head up i had it done to me its not nice keep smilin sweet

thanks pal,

i sell ferraris they make me feel posative ,i went for a long drive today to make myself feel better ,i have being going gym alot more ,i do miss her no matter what i seem to do ,i have got women left right and centre wanting to be with me since i broken up with maxine but i just want her ,but i want her to sort her head out she is not speaking to me at the moment,which hurts i feel that mabey i should just get on with my life,and she may relise once and for all what shes lost

thank you ,i just hope she misses me

we where together a year and an half

hows that. someone please give me some advice ,shes really messed my head up.

can any one advice me on this please

i was with a girl called maxine shes 28 i am 22, when i meet her we fell for each other stright away ,it was a bit strange really as she live over the road from me all my life, but our paths never crossed before ,i new her brother ,and her dad but not her she had being hurt before, i had never being in love, i just used to take advantage of my looks, and go on the pull all the time, but i fell in love when we started seeing each other it became aparent to me that she had some baggage, ie an ex that was in prison for attemted murder, he was a a foraner,and i found out wilest i was with her she was helping trying to get him out of prison, at the same time telling me i was the one ect ect, i satisfided her in every way but she would not let go of the past, she got him out of prison, and then disaperd out of my life she got bk with him, 2 weeks later she came looking for me and said she had made the biggest mistake of her life and needed me, like a fool i taken her bk we things started going really well we where happy. then her x turned up at her door a and tried to stab me he split my thumb open, and i beat him up on her road then he put a 20,000 pound contract out on me to have me shot. i had this droped as in the past i was a bit of a ganster. not any more i am soft now ,i carryed on loving maxine even thou i was hurt from all the stuff she had brought on me,we went on holaday together, she became my best frend as well as the love of my life. she told me i should do modling so i did became sucessfull but she got insercure hard to talk to and i just loved her, and did every thing i could to make her happy ,she started wanting to go out so i said ok go out even thou her frends are into cocaine .and i dident like the idea but she said to me i want you to stay in i did as she said and it done my head in, so the next time she went on a night out so did i ,i came back home and she lost it and punched me in the face. and made a mess of my hand these asalts started happening alot, and it scared me as i would not hit her bk as i would hurt her, once she started hiting me and i said do you want to kill me or somthing and instead of hitting her i hit myself and broken my jaw daft i know any way we ended up breaking up she moved a lodger in stright away that has a girlfrend and is her bros mate to help with the rent she started stalking me and i had enough of it gave in and said i would meet her for a chat that night she dident meet me she went out with her mates gutted i do love her miss her. but know she wont speak to me and registerd on a dating site ,me know i have being going out wiv my mates i go into clubs and i can get who ever i want , i get so many offers everyday but i just carnt do anything about them becuse i still feel like i belong to maxine, and it doesent help that one of my best mates died in a car acident the other day, maxine laughed i feel so alone