LittleMamma

Thanks hazey_amber. Like I said earlier, I haven't used and don't plan on it again. I don't have friends anymore because they are all bad influences and I choose not to have them around me. I've never heard this before, at least not with single time usage. If someone was an addict, that's understandable since it would cause long term damage, but that isn't the case for me. Can you post a link showing where you read that? And also what does AFAIK mean?

Thanks to everyone who has replied. I know how bad it was to do those things, but like I said, I was trying to convice myself that I couldn't keep the baby. I know there has been research done on addicts and their drug addicted babies, but I have no idea about the effects of one or two uses. Ever since then I have taken perfect care of myself. I always eat right, I get plenty of rest, I don't smoke or won't even be around 2nd hand smoke, I don't drink, and I especially don't do any drugs. I even cut out all my caffeine. I try really hard to take care of myself now. It was just those couple times in the very beginning. I am planning on asking about it at my next dr.'s appointment, but I have chickened out every time so far. It feels much better to have some additional input tho. I've heard about that amnio test, but I am young and healthy and every test they have done has come back perfect so far so I would hate to request one since there are so many risks for that test already. And you are right, I'm not the first one who has brought it up to them. I'm finished experimenting with drugs so I will not have to worry about what dangers come from them anymore. I'm going to be a mom now so it's time to grow up. Even if the dr. says everything is okay, I will probably still worry until I see for myself that my baby is okay.

And what do you mean by options? It is already too late for an abortion even if it was messed up. I am so scared to tell my doctor. I get very intimidated by them. I don't look like the type of person to do drugs and I know I will just chicken out. Do they do special tests?

That is what I was afraid of, that time when all the important stuff is developing. I talked to one of my friends about it who just had a baby. His g/f did meth without him knowing and he said the baby turned out okay so don't worry. But his baby was 3 months early and had a bunch of problems and I don't want that to happen to mine. I'm not addicted, I haven't had trouble stopping. I smoked pot a few times in the first month, but I did meth a couple times after I found out I was pregnant. That's the one I'm scared about. I am having trouble finding any information about it on the internet. The only one they talk about is cocaine, and I didn't do that, but they are alike so I don't know. They talk about if you have an addiction and all that, but I haven't been using this whole time, just 2 times or so. I wouldn't have even touched it but I wanted so badly to believe an abortion was what I should do. I hoped that I would be able to do that knowing I did drugs and messed up the baby already. I was so stupid. I was up for 3 days each time and didn't eat or barely drank water or anything. I am a few months along and have already had an ultrasound done and all the regular tests and everything came back normal. Would they do special ones if they knew I did this?

I am pregnant right now and I used illegal drugs. I feel very bad about it so please don't tell me it was wrong. I know it was. I'm too embarrassed to tell my doctor about it. I used them before I found out I was pregnant (1st month), but also right after (2nd month) because I was trying to convince myself to get an abortion. I'm scared I did irreversible damage to this baby. Does anybody know for sure? I know there is a chance, and I am so sorry about it and I wish I could take it back. I haven't done them any more and I am not going to either. I read that between weeks 5-8 there is so much development that happens and I'm so scared that I screwed it up.