janaceke7121

Thank you for advice. Now actually I met both of them in the reality. One for four days before thre was no important feeilngs toward them, and two for 9 days after I got feelings toward both of them. the first guy didnt want me to meet the other guy. He gave me a deal, if I see the second one, he will never see me again. I broke up this promise and lied to him and met the second guy. I told about it after I went to the second boy. He said its over. It seems I wanted the first boy's character and the second boy's love in one person. But the first one said he never wants to see me. Do you think I tries to ask him to see me again? I bought a airplane ticket to see him already with no refound. Is it going to be waste?

Help me. Give me advice. What would you do when more than two people had feelings toward you at the same time and you really needed them in your life seriously? I met two really wonderful persons in the internet. It's diffcult to see them in the reality. They live so far from here. But anyhow I saw one of them in the reality before. The time with the person was wonderful. We both wanted the time again to make sure the feeling is true. The other person showed love in the internet. He seriously and sincerely loves me. He encourages me every day anytime I want him. The other guy doesn's do that much but I feel we belong with each other. My pain is gone when I talk with them. I am so lonely here. It's hard for me to live without their cares and love. The thing went very bad when I bought an airplane ticket to visit them. I bought it originally for the person who I haven't seen in the reality. At that time I didnt know that the other one also had feeling toward me although I wished he also had feeling toward me. I know I love both but I need to choose one. but I can't because I haven't confirmed the love yet. We shouldn't chain each other right now and need to know each other more and more and little by little. Without being bf/gf so hashly, I think my love exists for them. They want me to choose. but I can't sacrifice one of them for my happiness. When the other guy I already saw in the reality wouldn't allow me to see the boy when I come to their country. So behind him, I bought another airplane ticket to see the boy (or I would have lost chance to see him forever. ) Then I saw the person in the reality. But I couldn't keep the secret that I saw the boy in the reality to him and told the truth. He said it's the end of the relationship. When I asked if the boy I saw in the reality first really wanted the futhre with me, he couldn't say yes while the other guy from the beginnng says yes, he even allowed me to have time to choose. The person seems to want happy love rather than me. If I can't offer it, it's really the end of the relathinship with him...? I feel so sad. I stil want to see him again. I already bought the ticket. I know the boy I saw in the reality second loves me more than the other boy. But I can't choose one just because of it. I need to listen to my heart. I really like them the same. What should I do? Tell me. Sorry if you hardly understand what I said here, I am not good at English. But please give me advice.