carlym81uk

Because I had some message asking me to go on a show in New York,. Its been removed now.

thanks but i live in scotland

i dont know what would have happened. Though he did prove to me that he had called it off. I know he wants to be with me because we have spoken about things, and he said he wants to be with me. He loves me etc. Yeh maybe i should re- examine what i think love is. Like all you experts!

I guess i am being too nice to him. I know he did a terrible thing. But something is making me think, he's sorry, and its me he wants, maybe its my inexperience of relationships (this being my first proper one) But i thought we had a special bond. . And before we officially started dating , we had been seeing each other on and off for a few years (maybe 4 or 5). but from december we were meant to be "officially together" . At least that is what he said. I hope he wouldnt do this to me again , he said he wont. Do people make mistakes and pay for it, learn from it ? Nearly losing the one they truley love and change? I dont know. Mayhap i am just being silly! (probably more likely!) thats just wot id like to think , . , He keeps texting. . its so hard to ignore. Maybe i should go out at the weekend and get drunk and pull someone else!!!! I think he will be hard to get over because he is the first person i truley loved. Difficult to let go. It still hasnt really hit me yet. . Who knows how many other girls he had. He always had his mobile phone locked so i couldnt see!!!!!!

In reply to one of the posts, yeh, she came to the door because she had not heard from him in 3 weeks. Of course i did not believe this, so then he showed me her text messages saying " i take it you are back with your ex" etc. He says he had broken it off, and this explains her behaviour when she came to the door. He took me out last night. We had a long talk and i said id find it very difficult to ever trust him again. I also said i felt sick just thinking about what he had done to me. I dont understand why he wants to get back with me if he could go out with someone else. Is it because i am nice to him? I dont understand. I will keep everyone updated. I have not broken off contact with him yet . Maybe i should get back with him and then break up with him in a months time to punish him!

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