dream4tonite

I would try talking to her, but thats most likely gonna be a no go because I did say some pretty mean things to her. I'm just gonna have to find some way to deal with it I guess. I kinda like cutting more than burning though. Burning, although it feels good at the time really hurts afterwards. Cutting is addicting though. It also reminds me of this girl. Thats pretty much all I have left now, just a couple pictures of her and cutting which she does and that why I decided to do it. We were really close and she talked to me about it. She told me it lets the pain inside of her out. She even cut in front of me knowing that she trusted me and we were close. She felt as though She had nothing to hide from me and that I wouldnt judge her which I didnt judge her about that. I just really miss her and wish I wasnt such an * * * * * * * about things like all the time

....Hmmm. I just recently found this site and I must say that its really quite helpfull. This is really more of just a vent and I'm trying this out instead of self injury. I used to burn myself beause i'm always alone and things seem to go to * * * * for me no matter what I do. I have burn marks all over my arms. About 7 months ago I met this girl that she just means everything to me. She told me she cuts. Knowing that I did self injury too I wanted her to stop because I knew how serious it was so I tried to make her as happy as can be, but it just didnt seem like I could make her happy enough to stop. Now we got into an argument and we arent on speaking terms anymore. So for the passed few days I've been cutting up my leg instead of burning myself. I do it everytime I think of her or something reminds me of her. I stopped burning (for the moment) just until I get over her or until things with her go right again. I think I started to cut because it reminds me of her so much. I never told anyone about my selfinjury before...not even her....This is just me trying a new way to vent. I dunno if this will help me stop burning or cutting, but those ways just arent doing it for me anymore and i'm just afraid that im probably gonna move onto more serious things far beyond self injury. Feel free to share your stories or opinions. I've been liking what I seen on this site where I dont feel like an outcast, so I'm not really feeling that alone reading about other peoples problems and reading what people have to say. I know it sounds stupid, but it just makes me feel close to some of you people and not be afraid or alone. Thats all for now. Thank you to anyone who reads and responds to this