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Im DEVASTED. I love him so much but im completely heartbroken. We broke up yesterday. We didnt manage to book an appointment w a counsellor due to both of our busy time schedules (his work and my exams) and had decided to post pone any decision post exam. BUT, this wknd i went to see him to attend a ball organised by his company. Something was wrong. I couldnt explain it, but i knew something was going on. I was suddenly so upset, so i spoke to him: said i had serious trust issue after what happened. So, i asked him if there was anything he wanted to tell me...no was the answer. I wasnt convinced so i asked him if we could swap phones for a couple of days. I needed to be sure i could trust him again. He agreed. Then the txts started arriving. In the past month, since we spoke abt his 'new' feelings, he has seen two guys, actually, he slept with them and was keeping in contact with one. He was cheating on me. Everything came falling down. I couldnt believe it happened. He felt terrible and said he didnt want to say it then as Im abt to have my finals and he was scared it would influence my revision. This is worse. We spent 2 days just crying. The weird thing is that i dont hate him. I knew our relationship was going to end, but i didnt expect this 'back stab'. We spoke again for ages and I still want to be friends with him. 3 yrs is a long time and what has happened now will never erase my memories and the amazing time we had together. Im hurting sooo bad. I cant eat, sleep nor concentrate. He said he will tell his family this wknd and i am happy that he has decided to come to terms with it. I had in effect told him that he should follow what he feels and accept himself without feeling shame. And i knew that he would have tried to sleep with another guy to see if he really was gay to put his mind at peace. I just didnt see it coming now. I was honest with him. He told me he didnt want to lose me and i didnt want to lose him, thaz y we had decided to put things on hold. Im in such pain. It hurts me to see him cry too. I came back to uni today and we spoke on the phone. He couldnt stop crying and that hurt me even more. Help me please.

I'll try novaseeker. Its so hard. I really hope the counsellor is going to be helpful. Im abt to have my final exams too (im 21, hes 24) and I really need to get my head around this before they start, whatever that will mean. Thank you so much for your support guys, it means alot to me.

Thnx guys. If he is bisexual, I dont think I would have any issues with it. He is still very attracted by me and we have a healthy sex life.However, I imagine he will want to explore his sexuality further to understand where he stands.That is the problem. I want him to understand his feelings and that means letting him explore but I cant take that. Renaissancewoman101 Im sorry to hear that you have been through such pain and I believe you are right too. I know that this is going to hurt and i dont know if i will be able to take it. The issue is he has no one else. Nobody knows about this situation and if he is coming out, he cant be alone on it. Im really scared, I love him so much and i know he loves me just as much. I was thinking of perhaps seeing a counsellor as a couple? That way we both would have some extra support?

Hi, I ve been in an amazing relationship for 3 yrs now and thought it was going to last even longer...i recently discovered that my bf is questioning his sexuality. He has admitted to having fantasies abt men and that he sometimes does feel an attraction towards men. We have spoken for a long time and he believes it is only sexual curiosity as he could never see himself loving another man. The bond we have is very strong and we both do not want to lose what we have although im worried that it goes beyond sexual curiosity: is he in denial? I do not want him to be suppresing who he really is for fear of how others, particularly his family, might react. I have been hurting like never before but I do not want to change him for me. I have told him that whatever ends up happening, i'll always be by his side, even if not as his gf. This is hurting us both so bad. Is it possible for our relationship to continue or would we both be living an illusion? I really need some advice.