Is it ok to look at girls' webcams online??
I have been in a relationship for close to two years. I love the girl and we plan on getting married in the future. She is 21 and still in school three hours away. I am 23 and working. We see each other almost every weekend, probably 2 out of 3 weekends, or 3 out of 4 weekends. Recently a buddy informed me that one can go to Yahoo Chat Rooms and meet normal girls and every now again one might have a webcam. A few weeks ago when I was bored, I thought that I would check it out. I actually got more thrill than I expected out of the chase of trying to find girls who are willing to expose themselves. It rarely happens though, once or twice in two weeks. It has become very addictive for me to try to get online and see if a girl will talk dirty and reveal herself. It actually seems to excite me more than talking to my girlfriend on the phone does (note: my girlfriend and I don't have phone sex or anything). Anyway, I have not masturbated since my girlfriend and I have been dating. The search of finding a girl to reveal herself online really turns me on and when I get turned on, it is very difficult for me to stop what I am doing until I get turned off. One night, I stayed up until 5am online because of the thrill. That was bad. First off, is this behavior bad? Is it worse than looking at porn? Second, I was wondering how I can bring excitement into my girlfriend and my relationship, so I don't have this urge. I might just need a hobby because the weather was nice and I was out doing stuff, I didn't get the urge. Further, do you think that it might be a good idea to masturbate when I get this urge because then after doing that, I won't have the urge to get online and chat with other girls? It should also be noted that my girlfriend and I do not have sex, but do partake in oral activities. Thank you so much for you help.
