I (female 33)met this guy (33)a year ago via tinder, he was a tourist in my city for a week. We spend a wonderful week together, he shared a lot with me and opened up (as much as I did), and told me he never been that open with anyone and probably now I know him better than his friends and family.
Anyways he left to his country (which is far away from where I live), and I thought that g this is it and was ready for it. But he kept texting me every day saying that he never felt that happy and I'm the best thing ever happened in his life, we became really close sharing everything with each other every day (texting around 7 h per day - yea back then I did not have a job so lots of free time). All of it lasted around 5 month and then I started wondering where is it going because I kept giving him all my time and energy.
Once we discussed it and he said he was always in relationships(one lasted 6 years, another 5) and now it's the first time he is not in committed relationships and he want it to be like this. But our communication clearly was not "friends one". Anyways at some point I got sick of it because I felt anxious and insecure about what is going on, I physically started to feel bad and told him not to contact me anymore if he is not planning to move to my city (which now I realize probably was a bit too much to ask from a guy who I saw for 5 days).
Anyways I really miss talking to him but at the same time I don't want to find myself at the same place where I was, all anxious about what is going on. He did not reach me out for 5 months (but also I told him if he will keep texting me all the depressing messages about him missing me and not doing a thing to actually see me, | will block him - also probably a bit too much but back then I was really angry).
Once in the morning couple months ago I saw a missed call from him during the night but when I asked if he called he was like oh sorry don't know how it happened and since then I have not heard from him. I really miss talking to him so now I’m doubting should I try to have him back in my life or is i a bad idea?