F, 22
So I went on my first date ever a few weeks ago with this guy I met in one of my classes in college. Everything that could go wrong, went wrong on the date. And things escalated too quickly. We almost had sex and we didn’t know each other too well. He was crushing on me hard but I just didn’t feel the same way about him. And afterwards I told him I just wanted to be friends.
I was freaked out by how fast we moved and I didn’t want to make any commitments too soon. He really wanted me to be his girlfriend but I wasn’t even his friend yet.
Seeing him in class since that day has been awkward. We haven’t talked too much or kept in touch outside of class. It’s hard to see how to integrate him into my life as a friend. Especially considering he is 6 years older than me and I feel like we don’t have enough in common. Plus I feel like he’s more mature than me and if we were ever to date, I would just hold him back.
The weird thing is I can’t stop thinking about him and how good he made me feel about my body. I almost want to finish what we started just for one night. But I feel like that would be a bad idea. What should I do?
