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He said that now the both of us need to focus on ourselves. Me Focusing on mental stability and him focusing on his self development on his career. And when we both are fully ready we shall resume or see where faith will take us in the future.

He convinced me when we started hanging out together, around June. At first it was all about rainbow and unicorn. Until my anxiety kicks in again, having a fear that he will someday cheat on me like my past relationship because I let loose. I became possessive trying to keep him on my watch because i don’t wanna lose him. I trusted my ex blindly before and i got cheated, I don’t wanna make another mistake and this what pushing him away. I realized that he don’t deserve this as he’s being so loyal to me but it seem so hard to trust again, that’s why i seek for mental health care because I don’t want him to deal with me like this. But what really upset me is that just few weeks ago he told us to stay friends now. He said that it’s best to focus on our self growth. Him with his career and me with my mental health. He told me to resume after we both feel stable and healthy inside and outside

I am in the state where I cannot describe my relationship with my boyfriend now. He kept saying he loves me but in the same time he doesn’t want to commit in the relationship. I realized that i have anxious attachment style that make this relationship became worst and that he told me he couldn’t deal with me in this timeline. That’s why i seek for a mental health care to help me cope with my anxiety as I don’t want to make my boyfriend to go through this because i really don’t think that he deserves to be treated like this. While I’m trying to recover, given prescribed antidepressants etc, he then told me that it’s best just to stay friends now because he wants to prioritize his self development and he don’t want to jump to a committed relationship like this and rather wait till we both are fully ready. Is that mean he wants to wait till i fully heal? Does he really loves me? I mean that time when we weren’t together in a relationship yet, i told him already and he’s aware that i have anxiety disorder and i was traumatized by my past relationship. But he keep convincing me to accept his love and become his girlfriend. He also said that the spark has gone and this become very tiring as he couldn’t deal with my mind and I couldn’t accept the fact that he has changed