Yes, talking to bf was the first time I have ever spoken about it ever. There was a lot of times I wanted to say something to friends or family but never let myself. The older I have gotten the more I have realized the truth of the situation and how screwed up it was, much more than when I was younger. The first thing that I fear is not being believed. He used to give me drugs and alcohol and that continued until pretty recently. My mother and I always had a good relationship but I think that would hurt my credibility. It is really humiliating and the thought of people picturing it makes me feel terrible. Also I am not trying to send him to jail, don't want to go through a trial if anything could even be proven at this point.