-she said she interested but has no time for dating rn
-fast forward one month, she gave me her number
-we go on a date
-don't really know what to talk about with her
-she says "you can kiss me if you want"
-she let me grope and french kiss her on first date
-second date
-we makeout and grope each other
-she says "I've never bren treated this good before"
-gave me a handjob later on
-day or two passes
-she made some dumb joke over text that pissed me off
-block her
-fell guilty, try to make amends
-meet her at her workplace
-she forgives me without issue
-"I just wants to be honest with me"
-she wants to meet on saturday
-Ask her without much thinking "should I've dating someone else?"
-she gets all defensive
-she said"my heart is not from stone and you may heartbreak me one day"
-I started another argument with her-
-I say that I'm not a good relationship material
-she ask why
-"because I said so"
-she says "I have no idea what you got in that head of yours but we talked and you're not some vapid egoist"
-she blocks me afterwards
All of this happened in span of around week
Did I screwed up big?
TL:DR: I self sabotage a relationship with a girl that was attracted to me out of spite
