I'm honestly crushed right now. I was seeing this guy long distance for 3 years. We were best friends and we're intimate. I feel like we met at the wrong time because I was freshly healing from a toxic relationship. (which he knew). We got into a bad fight last summer, it was my fault entirely. But I gave him space after.
I've missed him everyday and hoped he would reach out to me but he never did. (I reached out on XBOX but unsent my msgs after). 3 days before his wedding, he let me know he's engaged and expecting a baby so on so forth with a huge a paragraph. I WAS SHOCKED. I wished him well. But the next day I knew I was heartbroken. I've been crying, can't sleep, it's been rough. I sent him message venting how these were our plans and I was healing before rekindling our romance. I went off on him. Obviously, I got no response and I'm even more upset. He hasn't deleted me off XBOX (where we met, but I deleted him) it hurts too ***ing much. I just can't believe this. In addition, his best friend posted the wedding on IG stories and I saw her. He and I had plans about our future and we never ended things like that. It was a fight that should have NEVER happened. I hate my life right now. I truly felt like we had a bond like no other. He moved on, got married, and is now going to be a dad - I feel like I never mattered.
Edit to add: He met her in August her said. One month after our fight.