Hi there!
It's been a month already since we broke up. I'm doing fine (I think I do). I'm doing everything I could to recover from my heartbreak (being cheated on).
I'm keeping myself busy at work and even extending my working hours till I'm exhausted. In that way, once I got home -- All I need to do is to take a shower and sleep.
Funny thing is, I decided to go down town. I was enjoying myself and taking a walk yesterday.
I happened to passed a coffee shop while wandering around. And, I saw my ex gf with the guy she cheated on me dating there. I was surprisingly and terribly shocked. Thoughts that came into my head was "***, it's just been a month and you're already showing it to everyone around you that you're already with someone else." The worst thing is I happened to saw her brother and he told me "that the guy is already visiting her at home". I was like "Really, F*ck!. How could she do that? Am I really that worthless person to not show even a little respect".
I decided not go inside the coffee shop (they didn't notice me though) and walked to the park instead. .
While I'm walking, I am feel with rage and madness -- which led me of thinking of going back to the coffee shop but I decided not to. The reason is , "It's been a month that I am at peace with myself , yes I am still doing my best to move on but I'm doing fine. And, I don't want to ruined every effort I've done just to embarrass myself in front of the person who didn't show me any respect".
Though my mind is clouded with the emotions I am feeling in that particular moment. I decided to go home to calm myself instead.
I wasn't expecting any of those things. I guess we should "ALWAYS EXPECT THE WORST".
It sucks but that's life. There's nothing I can do about it. At the end of the day, I only have myself whom I can rely on truly.
-Four