I met this guy on a vacation almost 1.5 year ago. We kept contact and we saw each other in person 2 times for couple weeks after the initial meeting. I traveled to see him both times. each time and everything was great. Last time we saw each other he made it clear he wants me to be his girlfriend officially and he wants a future together and he is very serious about things. All his family, friends, coworkers know about me and met some of them .
He insisted on moving together for months and months and finally i said yes. I never wanted or plan to move to the city where he lives but i wanted to give this shot , i felt like i finally found someone that loves me for who i am and care about me. , affectionate, loving, caring , protective what do i need more me the one that never been loved before or cared for now i have someone.
I left my job and my friends and moved cross country to another State. City and with very little money i worked hard to save . Everything is great like in a fantasy always caring and affectionate . But 2 days ago my phone start acting up and he said he has an extra phone i could use until i get new one and when i went through the phone he gave me i found a contact under "friend"and when i read the text it seems like he text a phone number he found on some website for sex where you pay for that . He gave her his name and and ask how it will work and how much are the prices. And than there was another contact number under "milf" where he Text her " hello baby how are you doing " and another contact number with a girls full name where he gave her his address and she was coming over and she even texted him when she was outside his apartment and 10pm. The same date i looked up our texts him and i and he told me he was asleep . All these compensation happened about a month after i was with him . Visited him spend his bday with him and made our relation official .
I felt hurt and dessapointed and stupid to believe that someone can love me . I have just different feelings . I didn't tell him anything yet. But he noticed that something is off about me. And he asked but i said i have migraines . But it was hard to look him in the eye and just didn't want him to get any where near me or touch me at all. I just got here to his place a well ago. I don't have a Job yet. I don't really have money either i had to pay for a lot of things for it new place. I don't have any family to go to . And don't know what to do. I don't know if this is really bad or I'm just freaking out. I'm not sure if i Skype just tell him or pretend i don't know. I don't even know is this is called cheating . But i know i wouldn't do that to him. I would never do silent to hurt him. I feel like something has broken and i just can't look at him the same. I'm so dissapointed . I thought what we had was special. He is very nice to me and treats me really well and he says he loves me so much all that didn't change. No one ever treated me the nice way he does and i do the same in return. I tater him very nicely. I. Cook and clean for him and I'm very supportive and affectionate. But i don't know where to go from here. I sideways felt i want good enough to be loved. I'm okay looking not nor the most pretty or cute girl . But i have a good and kind heart. I thought finally i found someone. But now i m really lost. I feel like my world has crumbled down on me. Please help!
