Hi all,
I'm new so I hope I'm posting in the right forum. I'm sorry but this is a little long - have to give you some background info.
I'm getting married in 3 weeks. He's a wonderful man, but I think there must be something missing because I can't help myself from thinking about a past fling. Three years ago I met this great guy, we saw each other everyday for 2 amazing weeks while he was in my city. After the two weeks were up he went back to his city and he ended up getting back with his ex gf. We've spoken a couple of times since but I've thought about him alot over the years. So on a conference in his city 3 weeks ago I decided that I would meet up with him and face him and my feelings so that I could go in to my marriage with complete committment.....well, that was a big mistake! This deep seaded passion that I had for him completely surfaced and no matter how hard I tried to surpress it, I just couldn't. He tried to be a gentleman also but he couldn't contain himself from confessing his feelings for me. I kissed him, passionately....for 3 days. I didn't sleep with him but I may as well have because I'm so messed up now that I don't know what to do with myself. i'm back home and haven't told my fiance.
I've tried to surpress the thoughts and go on with my life....and it was working for a while, but whenever I'm alone I revert back to thinking about him.
I love my fiance, I don't want to lose him. I'm 3 weeks away from getting married. I don't think the other man is what I want but there must be something fundamentally missing in my relationship for me to have done this.
What's wrong with me?!?!?!?!
