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Wow, thanks, I didn't expect so many replies. I think I'm going to find someone with similar interests.. or just try to be more communicative. I play a keyboard actually. And I'm very interested in air guns. I also like playing billiards, not too often though. I just didn't think of finding someone to share my activities with..because of my shyness perhaps. I knew one girl with similar situation. I didn't really wanted to talk to her (I was polite and all but couldn't find the right words or something) when she spoke to me, she really was trying to communicate and was obviously failing. I understand this now. She doesn't live here anymore.

Oh, I really should try these. Thanks.

Well I wrote it here: I have schoolmates but these are far from friends.

I'm 16 and I have no friends. I have an ok family, I study fairly good, I have some activities to do and that's pretty much it. I have no one to invite me somewhere, no one to go to any time, no one to talk to, no one to do something together and so on. Frankly, I am fine with it and I am not going around screaming that I have no friends and it doesn't drive me mad at all. It just feels like that: There are some school mates but each of them either underestimates me, have such friends who I would be too embrassing to show or likes to humiliate me in front of everyone. I never made real friendships, no one offered me or whatever. I think I am trustful, honest, kind etc. I'd never betray anyone or do something bad. I'd NEVER point out some embrassing stuff about someone. But I am not so talkative, especially when it's about meeting new people. Also when meeting someone I thoroughfully examine that person, I am kind of afraid of meeting someone who has near-skinhead friends and who is rude in talk because it pretty much happens with everyone. I can be a really good friend though Ah what the hell, here are some examples.There was one highly stupid accident when one pal from school came to invite me to hang out it was 9 or 10 pm and my parents started worrying and when he heard it he told it to everyone in colourful way and it was absolutely embrassing. Also they like to point out something bad about me and the thing that I don't smoke, drink, hang out at night makes them embrassed of me in front of their friends! Here's another one: When we were on a trip to one town, we had some time to just hang around and I with other lads came to some valley. They started drinking and I refused. That whole day was ruined because I was the point of pathetic jokes. I can go on and on. I'm on vacation now and it feels like heaven. No school at all. I hate school because of these people, not studying! It feels like always all schoolmates want something from me. They want to do something for them, like school test or they want to fix their pc etc. They never ask me about me or talk about me or something to do with me. Now whenever someone starts to talk with me I point out in my mind that he wants something and it's always true! Can someone give me an advice on what to do? I have no idea what, not even a bit. Oh, and I don't even want real friends, they can be just friends at first. Thank you.