Breach

I would like to thank everyone so much for your thoughts on my post. I don't have anyone to talk to about this, and everything you've said helps out a lot. I've never known love like this. A feeling deep in your soul that aches, it's something so new to me. Sure, I've been in love before, but not this kind of love. It is hard to break those ties with another, even though you don't want to. But your right, in the long run, it will work out better for me. I've never really had a hard time attracting women, but as you get older, things change. I know what I'm looking for, I just don't know where to look. I know that maybe I made a mistake in the age factor, but I don't look like I'm 31. I could pass for 22, so that is why I seem to attract the younger crowd. I'm tired of that. Where do you start looking for a casual friend? I don't go to church, and I try not to frequent the bars. This forum has really helped me out. To be able to get things off of my chest, and have some feedback, it's great. I've never been one to express my feelings very much. And maybe that's why this current relationship is not working. It's a two way street, and I've contributed to the problems also. No one is perfect. But she wants to go out and socialize everynight and drink. I've done that when I was her age, and I just don't care to do that anymore. So maybe there lies the problem?

I have no idea what to do, I have so many thoughts going thru my head, and advice would be appreciated. I'm 31, living with a 20yr old woman. We have been together for over 2 years, and I know that relationships are not easy, and require a lot of work, but things have just fallen apart with us. It started after New Years Day. She has become very close to another man, but yet she keeps telling me that they are just friends. She stays out till all hours everynight, gives no reasonable explantion as to where she's been, says she was with friends. She tells me that she loves me everytime she comes home, but yet I feel that there is no real love or caring left here anymore. I can accept that, I really can, but the problem is, I've asked her to move out several times, and she won't leave. This is tearing my heart out. I know what she is doing is wrong, but I can't stop loving her. I've had many girlfriends, and I've never had these kind of feelings of betrayel before. No matter what she does, and no matter how mad I get, I just can't stop loving her. I'm in the process of buying a house just to get away from her, but I know that I'm going to miss her so much. I know that it's just going to take time, but my heart has been aching now for 3 months. Im not depressed, just hurt, that the one person that I want to spend the rest of my life with, is off doing whatever with whoever, and it doesn't bother her. Why can't a good looking guy, such as myself, find what I'm looking for? I'm tired of hearing a lot of women say, that they can't find a nice guy. I'm right here, and I'm getting dumped on. All's I want is a relationship with some honesty, and truth. Please let me know what I should do. Do I keep fighting for her, or let her go? Hurt in Ohio