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Makes me want to hang myself, but in a good way. I was eating some leftover IHoP pancakes when I read this and my throat closed up so tight with emotion that I had to run to the fridge to wash down the clog with milk. LMAO! That's one powerful piece right there.
Are you serious? I wish I could have seen it... lol.
Something that resonates with you, maybe you've related at one point in your life? Loss of love is loss. I am grieving
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Ive never been in this spot before
Where I am the weak one
Unable to let you go
Even after all this time
I want you back
I look back the years
I cursed others' love
For making me complete them
Who tried to be mine
But now I am yours
And cant be
Im refused each time
You dont lean on me
Like I want you to
I need that goodnight whisper
You are my moonlight
Even now, though we do not speak
As well
You are my angel, singing me softly to sleep
With that deep impactful voice
That I only know to be your own
It calls me home
Oh God I love you
Dont you know?
Come home
Why dont you dear
On this brillliant road
From all the years
You have lead me
So long and Im tired
Let's rest
And sing a lullaby
of fire
I knew myself before I knew you
I knew myself before I knew you
But now I dont know myself at all
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Thanks whenamansloveisreal Even though I read your coment almost 2 years later sorry!
Lol HI SIRAF! I was quite strange two years ago!!
haha not much has changed
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oh gawd...
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Aye, but it was just a dream
This world going "boom"
The darkness settled in
As night time begins
And to a dream he was led
And split in two
The girl couldnt make him see
What she felt, the things she needs
It's not in him
She spends day giving him her attention
Pushing him away
And so it remains
The freedom she longs for
Stuck in that world
His world
He holds the key
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The sun sets
The world spins
Their hearts fall in and out again
It's the way of things
She touched his hand
Got his heart instead
Unforunate for him
Her eyes were distracted
By blinking stars and distant lights
She tried to act into him too
The sun sets
The world spins
Their hearts fall in and out again
Her heart fell in and out again
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Your friendship was all I wanted
To be close
To be heard
But you threw everything I had away
It was my fault
It was all my fault- I let you down
I could not let go the ignorance
and jealousy in me
Childishness indeed
I stare at your photos now
at the person I knew since a child
Whom is anything but these days
Always with a smile upon her face
Though my heart aches
I wish the best for you
I hope you wish
The best for me too
Good luck with him
He's the only one you'll love
That and new friends
The door closes on me
To your heart
Here it ends
Brown hair beauty
Hazel eyes
Found her way alone
achieved responsibilites through strife
Angelic face, always tried so hard
Never let them see her weak
At least not as she grew up
I will miss what she meant to me
The fun days we had, just connecting
My closest friend, I hurt you the most
Her parents and sister hurt her for show
But now they are all her best friends
She truly is a beauty
I never believed it would end
It hurts to lose you
This time we won't make up
Dont ever think I used you
I just knew nothing else to do
But show my emotions, raw and all
I'm sorry you didnt understand me
I'm sorry I blamed you for this
Even now, I wish you did and accepted me dearly
As I always have of you and will miss sincerly
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LOL this thread was from a long time a go. Omar and I know each other, and recently he was logged in at my house so I wrote that above "I love blueangel" hehe
but he's doing better now everyone. And please resist name calling sheesh!!
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it's good enough for me
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lol I tried.
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Sunrise over the hill
The day takes its slow time
To mount to me its richness
To bring to me its light
Sometimes I still stay waiting
In the moonlight, the light of pain
From what suffering can be seen
But not the light of day
The trees do speak of a soft sadness
They are the reaching stillness, like my madness
In me, struggling for what's free
The sunlight which watches over me
Its in human touch, warmth and want
The type of love that knows fault not
Instead of
The type of haunting in the soul
That governs your body, makes you feel old
It's the pain that makes me cry
But it also keeps me reminded of the depth of life
Sunrise bring your might
Help my tired eyes to open
To the hearts around me
I am done choking on my own blood
My own disastors
To my dreams.
The falling leaves chant to me
As I stand here alone
Instead of sun, rain comes
And I am still alone.
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This is advice I actually try to give myself: if you can open up to one person, or to just being with them without expectation or need of them to make you happy, that itself is all you will need to find this key. It starts with you. That is a scary realization, but it is also the truth.
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Realize that true happiness lies within you. Waste no time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside. Remember that there is no happiness in having or in getting, but only in giving. Reach out. Share. Smile. Hug. Happiness is a perfume you cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself.
Og MandinoIt is better to light one small candle than to curse the darkness.ConfuciusSurrender yourself humbly; then you can be trusted to care for all things. Love the world as your own self; then you can truly care for all things.Lao TsuI place a high moral value on the way people behave. I find it repellent to have a lot, and to behave with anything other than courtesy in the old sense of the word -- politeness of the heart, a gentleness of the spirit.Emma ThompsonH e best keeps from anger who remembers that God is always looking upon him.Plato -
I called my boyfriend after I wrote that (it was like midnight) and now I feel better. We all have those nights where we just cradle some pain and don't know what to do with it. To get through it...I just endure it. Suffering isn't bad, doesn't matter that much- because when you look back into memories of times you suffered, you only feel love and compassion for yourself rather than relive the pain in your heart. Sometimes that makes it worth it, especially on days when I'm trying to fake it... pretending to be someone I'm not. To remember and feel that love And it makes me take a look at how far I've come if I'm doing better another day...or sometimes just the next morning.
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My heart won't let me go to bed
Nor will my head
Nothing will let me sleep
And yet I feel so dead.
I need supported, loved, and lifted
To know I'm never alone
Someone...anyone, are you there?
For now, I live in the dark
Waiting for good dreams
That never do get here
For no one is around right now
I'm stuck feeling alone
Can't hold myself up on my own
Still I can hear them down below
The TV roaring louder than it should
But they can't hear me.
My heart beating as its bleeding
Holding onto my pillow sheets
Life is never hopeless though
There are many thing I'd still like to see
Like to see where life leads
Find out what I can be.
Life's is disappointing though
Every day, I still must go on
Push on, keep fighting
Trying to be so strong
I'm trying to be happy
But inside, I know I'm dying
There's no one to see me
I'm alone in the dark and
My heart won't let me sleep
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Thanks, I take influence from David Icke and Bill Hicks... I know a lot of people think they're weird and even dangerous, but they're an inspiration to me... people who aren't (or weren't) afraid to share their beliefs and take a big risk by voicing against the "powers that be", to say at the least.
RIP Bill Hicks
My inspirations are... Immaculee Ilibagiza, the Dalai Lama (his book The Art of Happiness is something I recommend to you), Martin Luther King, Gandi, Neale Donald Walsh inspires me, Cameron Diaz because she's ecofriendly, and Angelina Jole because she travels the globe to help people. Also the band Dir En Grey because they really try to convey emotions through their shows even if the songs they sing are sick and darkly. check out the link in my siggy! That's one of their songs from years a go but it's haunting and beautiful and I love it!! Rihanna's song "Umbrella" I love as well. ^_^ Lastly, the Goo Goo Dolls, U2, and Lincoln Park sometimes inspire me. I remember the first book to ever inspire me. It started me as the person I am when I was younger- "Enchantress from the Stars" by Sylvia Endagle. yup!
What do you recommend from these two people you mentioned and I'll check it out. I dont know them so I'm not biased.
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so...yeah!
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They sound a bit like scifi!
But I know what you mean and I've carried those thoughts before.
We're all going to die and that's why it's so crucial that we choose to live, really live, while we can. Stand up and smile at the world no matter what happens. Make a choice, 'I am happy' and live with it. Go out into the world with it and you can make positive impacts and changes through the choice to be all that you are, the best of it especially. We have it in us to create magic in the moment but remain guarded because of our boundaries. These boundaries are self made, perceived only in the mind as true, but do not exist. You can reach out to any person, get close to any person, and express yourself to anyone you choose.
The first step is choosing, not to hide from what happens to you or what you think is happening to society. we all have what it takes to create happier interactions and that's by caring, by making those closest to us matter. Dont be afraid to rely on someone, or to say simply that you need to. We all pass through this phase...and most do many times in their life. The key is to hold onto what you hope for, to never let the visions you have for your life fade, and most of all, to not fear change or to fear that you yourself may need to be the change, or change. You can reach any goal if enhance your visions and choose not to give up. life consists of conscious choosing but many of us choose unconsciously. You have chosen cynism and that is only digging you into a deeper hole of pain, sorrow and misery instead of enabling to live life to the fullest, while knowing that no day is promised. No years are promised. All we have is now to live.
Widen your perception past what's wrong with the world and be part of what's right. be you, the happy you that you can be. I know you can do it. Because I've been where you are before. I understand. I know. I feel it sometimes to. But you have to let pessimism go if you ever want to experience the good. And I know you want to. I know you want to so badly. I'm here for you. -hug- If you haven't been able to tell, we all are.
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Every moment of your life is a gift, whether good or bad happens, it's to challenge you to grow. Dont step away from that challenge. Embrace it, always. There are heroes who have before that you can look up to, to the hardships of life (Martin Luther King being on of them)
Express yourself. Find yourself. Remember this moment is a gift. Every moment is one, whether it appears so or not. We only get one life to live. Stop placing expectations or boundaries on your own...and just work with the flow for a while. You have people here...strangers here like myself...who care about you.
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"The life of a single human being is worth millions of times more than all the property of the richest man on earth."
-Ernesto "Che" Guevara
There are things we have to find before we can find each other.-» The Wonder Years
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I already have found a nice guy. I actually have a boyfriend. I'm not THAT interested in my teacher- just slightly infactuated and I admire the qualities he has as a man. I look up to him and learn from him more than academics because he really cares about knowledge of the world, the world itself (he's an eco man!) and has his own unique teaching methods (believing students can teach themselves if given the tools to experiment.) Most students hate him actually, but I think he's sexy and has interesting viewpoints (even if at times, he presses these on the students- it's cool to me)
And I like hearing any type of advice- I'm not the type of person who dwells too long on things she knows aren't right for her. I just express it and move on. Speak your mind, Rozi, yeah!
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The only thing pathetic is the pity party you hold for yourself. This corrupts most humans, did you know? You CAN change this viewpoint. It is not your true identity, just a choice you made to behave towards your problems. But no problem has to be a problem if you use it to grow.
If you leave now, you will be leaving the answers you've been searching for your whole life. You'll never hear what anyone says to you again- any child asking for help in the future (maybe your own), any lover in the future trying to get to know you and you wont hear yourself speak to others, the unique self expression you may have in this world will be lost. You'll never see your eyes again in your mirror. You'll have no more chances. As of now, you have every chance to turn your life around. It's your attitude which stinks and the self denial that perserveres of which you admit to yourself there can be no change. But let me tell you: there can be every change in the world. You just have to live differently. And this starts with your thoughts about yourself and life. They are a little immature and hopeless, like a teenager's still. The cynical aspect of the mind starts in a teenager the most, did you know? You have not left that stage. It's time you choose to do so.
If you give yourself the chance to keep growing, you will gain that strength you always wanted. Unfortunately, now that you've declared "it's too late" you will most likely make it so. Only you can say "Ok, wait a second" because even as we all shout "stop" you will be disappointed since you cant find a good enough answer. This is called Missing What Life's All About. You are choosing My Life Is Only About Me And So That Makes Me Alone. Like I said, like a teenager's still. Give yourself time to grow. A lifetime even and then you can decide in the end if it was worth it to live. But you are too young to make an accurate analysis of what your own life holds for you. All you can do is keep trying.
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Short and ironic. Cute.
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I've been reading your posts. You are so incredible lol. Hope I dont sound weird now, but I really like your expressiveness. There's something about it, that's for sure!
Great poem.