I am a 27 year old woman & I am dating & in love with a 43 year old man...I have been w/him for about 4 years...he has done so many things a normal being would have left him a long time ago....He is hard to live with & hard to make happy 75% of the time...I have no one to vent to except my journal & god....i am to embarrased & ashamed to tell anyone i know the way he treats me or some of the things he has done to me...@ night sometimes I cry & ask myself why am I still here...I am a free person but there is something inside of me holding me back...I feel sometimes he treats me like a kid & sometimes he is to controlling..I go to work each day & you would never be able to tell that there is something is wrong w/me...Deep down inside I feel like i have to many feelings bottled up & I could just break down....But I don't want to leave because I love him...& sometimes I feel forced to apologize or he will throw me out on the street...Every argument he wants to break up...We live together in another state & I only have him & myself..Don't get me wrong he has done a lot for me & has helped me better my self......Thanks for listening.....
