When i am busy with lots of things to do i dont feel this way, but as soon as i get some time off to think, or i remember something about someone i start to feel like this, isolated, lonly, empty inside... my whole body goes cold and i get goose bumps and start to shiver.. I have many friends, but i always get the feelign that they are imature and dont understand.. My family is great and loving but i cannot help but feel empty. lately when my friends are all talking i dont want to, i feel like sitting alone.. but this is the feeling i hate. Its like im torturing myself. The only problem i can see and that i think about often is having a girlfriend that i can love, i really like this girl at the moment but im 17 and shes 14 and i dont think its right, nor does anyone i know. The only problem is when ever i think i have found someone that i really like, i either end up being rejected or they have a boyfriend, or somethign is not right... you know. Right now i feel like lying down and fading away... when i read posts of people feelign similar or depressed i feel liek crying because i would love to talk with them and share with them my expierience becasue i would love to help them if i could and its such a bad way of living.
