Hello.
I am 28 F and this past few months I have been through hell...
I am an engineer and for the past 5 years I was working as such making ready for the next career step. My dream was always to get into academic research. After devoting myself in this the whole of the last year (2022-2023) I landed a full scholarship in a masters programm one of the most expensive and important university in my country (I am in Europe). I immidiatly moved to the city of the university with my bf (30) who also thought that it is a good opportunity for him to do a seminar/ masters programm too in the same university. (we are on the same field) He is the sweetest guy and truly supports me in everything. (
The problem starts with everything else. I dont have the money to support myself without working while I study and I do a full time job and classes at the same time. Its been two months and I am dead. The classes are extremely difficult and demanding nobody other in this degree is working (all have rich families). A student loan is also not a solution. I find myself tired all the time. I am failing in the classes because of this. My dream is to get a PhD but if this goes on like this I wont be able to. My family is not rich but middle class and the refuse to help because they dont believe in the academic field. They think my choice is stupid and immature and that it is time to work and make a family (I dont even want kids!!)
My friends also dont support me at all. The said congats on the scholarship but nothing else. Everytime I say how tired I am they say that it was my choice and I should not complain...
I work in a company in which in my position I worked with a friend. (we have the same friend group.) She decided to quit her job (which I recommended her for) without any warning and without giving time for the company to find another employee and even without closing her projects. She just said goodbye and did not come back. My boss was furious and yelled at me too for recommending her (this is his problem ) but now I have to do all her work too, working overtime 10 h and more. Her work the past few months was awful most of her projects have mistakes and such and now I am trying to save everything. I got mad and told her that this is very bad. She did this knowing that it will harm me.
My other friends all say that she did nothing wrong she just wanted to leave and she left. She also has no money problems has her own house and wanted to take time of to see what she wants to do in her life and do some seminars on dance (she is also a dancer).
I am devastated and very tired..