My boyfriend and I met a year ago. He's a merchant marine so his job requires that he's out to sea most of the time. I got pregnant and had the baby 3months ago and he has been gone a lot though he calls and the money for the baby is always on time.
I am currently out of the US and moved back to where my parents are because we all decided it'd be best for me to be with my family while he's away. Our plan was for me to go back to school and get my nursing degree (about 2 years) while he works nonstop with the exception of a month or 2 off to see us. When I get my degree. we planned on moving back to the mainland and to settle down.
Anyway, here's the problem. This past week, I hadn't heard from him. I couldnt reach him via his cell phone. I got worried and I know this doesnt excuse or justify anything, but I checked his voicemail to see if i could get an idea as to what's going on. I could have called his company but they're closed over the weekend and since i'm not an immediate relative, they wouldn't likely release the information of his status to me. So I heard a couple of girls .. some of my friends said it sounds innocent but the others think there's more to the story. One girl had talked about keeping in touch and another had talked about having a bad day and she needed to see him or talk to him. I erased them. I checked his messages again and one of those girls had called to wish him a happy thanksgiving and then a 'miss u' in the end.
I know this has gotten too long but i really need some input. I havent been able to sleep because as much as I want to, I cant get it out of my head. I want to ask him about it but if I do, he'll know I was checking his voicemail and totally take it as me spying on him which wasnt the case. please help, i need my peace of mind back.
