I am 22 years old and have been dating the same girl for the past 3 years. We had a very special relationship for the first 2 and a half years but recently it went down hill. She broke it off with me about two weeks ago and I was completely devestated.
For the past 8 or 9 months I had been neglecting our relationship and it became just a routine. I didn't do the special things that I did in the past, became more lazy about things and just drove her out of love with me. Its really hard because I know that it was my fault for this and if I would of changed earlier I know that we would still be together. She says she is ready to move on, and I don't blame her. Now looking back I see how I was a jerk and didn't care for her like she deserves. I miss her in my life tremendously, and its not becuase I am lonely or need a companion, its because I truly thought she was my soul mate, I sincerly thought that we were meant to be. I did take the begging route these past few days in trying everything just to let her know that I can change to the man she fell in love with. I just want to show her that I can change and love her completely and unconditionally. I respect her decision and I do understand what she is going through, but I can't sit here idle and think that things will be reconciled. I just love her too much. I have had so much trouble even contemplating moving on right now. She means everything to me and I would truly appreciate any advice on how to help our love blossom again. At one time she wanted to marry me now she wants nothing to do with me. Thankyou
