loveshy

I am such a loser I just want to die! 44, single, lonely and I hate myself! God has brought me back from the brink so many times - why can't he respect my decision just once!? It's almost as if he has made me indestructible, I really am no good to you God, and this will never change! God, I am going downhill more and more - please, please be merciful and help me to die!