didyoumissme

yeah, I need to turn my frown upside down, Thanks!

I feeling really lonley right now tho.. I need a friend right now..

Yeah, I don't know.. I'm tired of playing games.. as far as I'm concern the game is over & it's his lost!

Wow.. I can't believe I will be turning 28 years old tomorrow...

I feel sad, sleepy right now... But, I'm hanging in there...

I know he wasn't really a true/good friend of mine. But, I still think of him alot and wished he thought of me and actually cared and wanted me for a friend. He was the one who actually said to me

"don't call me or email me anymore for a while" So, I'm still trying to respect his wishes and not contact him at all.

I don't know if he meant to never contact him ever again or if it meant just for right now?

and/or I don't know if he meant "anymore for a while" as in a couple weeks, months, years? I'm so confused too right now. I want to ask him, But.. I can't. I keep checking my hotmail. But, he hasn't emailed me at all.. It's been over a month now. So, I guess he don't need or want me for a friend anymore.

I'm so sad right now, tears are pouring out of my eyes endlessly right now. I want to call/email him again to ask if we can still be friends and if he will still be my buddy,ask him if he's mad/hate me. But, I know I can't , I have to let only"him" go. Our friendship was not meant to be. I must try to stay strong, move on with my life with my true, real friends

Yeah, I'm having trouble in copeing too. I lost a best friend and missing some old good friends in the past.

Is there a book out there on "how to cope with losing a best friend"?

I'm trying to hang in there.. I don't really have a choice now. It's very,very hard tho. I'm missing not only him, But.. some old friends who I also be so closed to back in the day.. Why do things have to change? Why can't it ever be the same? I don't like changes for the worst. I don't like any kind of change at all. I'm sorry, But.. I'm having a very sad moment right now. I'm trying really hard not to email, call him. It's been well over a month since I called him. He can't call me since my phone number has been changed. As much as I want to give him my new number, I know it's not a good idea. Plus, he doesn't or hasn't responsed any emails back to me. The last email was the end of August that I sented. When I just say Hi, how are you doing? Type email. I just want the pain, hurt to end. I don't want to hurt anymore. I want to be happy. I don't wanna feel sad, Because why should I care when it's obvious he doesn't care or feeling sad wanting to contact me. I've always been such a good friend to him too and I guess all along I've tried for nothing.

Morning, How is everyone doing? I'm doing okay, I guess..

same stuff, different day.

I really try not to count the days. It still hurts when I think over on everything that was said & done.

As much as it hurts and very hard to do, it's all pointless. I'm still moving on.

I know he was never nearly as hurt/sad/mad over this as much as I am.

I can see that I cared more all along. So, if he's living his life happy and not worrying about me at all,Then why should I worry or be miserable over this anymore? It seems like us not talking doing NC doesn't bother him at all.. So, why should it bother me?

I must move on, don't worry, be happy.

Feeling better. Had a date today. Went REALLY well. Now I'm feeling... Well... GREAT!!

Wow.. Great! I'm glad to read that you had a better day & got to get out!!

Hey Didyoumissme. I'm still feeling blue guys.... haven't slept a wink.

*hugs Red* aaww sorry to hear that you haven't slept. I can sleep okay if I take my aniexty medicine. But, if it wasn't for the medicine I'd probably wouldn't get any winks at night either..

How are you feeling today? I'm okay, hanging in there..

I hope to really get all over this one day.:sleeping:

Good Morning

I've been having a rough patch too. Never had I wanted to know what somebody was doing without me so much. I'm very blue today.

yeah, i know how you are feeling because i've been feeling blue too..

NC... oh who cares? I'm tired of keeping count. I've been depressed all week. It's gotten really bad now. At least I know life is worth living.

yeah, same here...

I'm trying to not even count the days of NC anymore..

I need to heal, I want to heal. I know eventally, I will heal!

Jen,

 

Glad to see you are hanging in there. Keep up the great work.

It's been about 2 weeks and I'm still hanging in there with NC!

Thanks reality_writer & everyone!

I don't have time or money to see a therapist. I wanna do this on my own. It's much easlier said then done of course.. I've been good, I haven't contacted him any. I'm hanging in there..sticking to NC! I know I can do it!

after he told me to not contact him he replied to to an email with answers to some questions I asked. so for that alone should i just have a piece of mind that he doesnt hate me ?

I didn't reply back to the email after he answer a couple questions, I don't think I will til maybe one day he actually contacts me again. Don't worry, I'll give him pently of space.

I feel like he hates me or something like that. But.. He did responded to an email yesterday (after he told me to nop contact him)so for that alone should i just have a piece of mind that he doesnt hate me that maybe its all in my head?

Ahhh.. another day.. trying to stay strong...

How's everyone else doing?

I feel like he hates me or something like that. But.. He did responded to an email yesterday (after he told me to nop contact him)so for that alone should i just have a piece of mind that he doesnt hate me that maybe its all in my head?

I'm on day 1 all over again... I don't understand why it's so hard for me.. I'm getting upset with myself that it's hard to let go..