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Hi, I keep seeing her. I still find her beautiful. Although still nervous when I see her at least I can keep my composure better than before. We have quick- in passing- conversations every time. I saw her out on the campus earlier today and she said 'hiya' and smiled as she passed me in the opposite direction on her bicycle. I have not told anyone else at uni about my feelings for her but they seem to find it strange that I spend so much time in the library these days! Guess it will do my grades good in a strange sort of way- notwithstanding my constant fantasizing about her!!! I agree that getting to know her would be a good thing. All I have to loose is a confusing dream. I could gain a friend, dispel a 'crush' or ????? who knows? Either way, its no bad thing

Thanx for the replies. It helps to have objective opinions from people who dont know me. I agree that I am in no position to be labelled right now and cannot be termed lesbian. I have seen the librarian a few times sinse my post. Twice earlier today in fact. I am like a love struck kid around her. I was really happy that she said "hi again" to me. She was just being friendly but she remembered me which is something! I dont want to use another library both out of inconvenience and my enjoyment of seeing her. Guess my bf would go mad if her knew where all my desires were!

I have developed really strong feelings for a female librarian at the uni I go to. I am a 20 year old female. I have a bf and until recently had not really thought about girls. The other week this all changed though. There was a long queue for the library desk at uni. I noticed a women behind the counter and my eyes were caught by her arms. She was wearing a sleevless top and her arm muscles were massive. My eyes were glued to them. As All I did was admire her biceps I bagan to notice her completely. She was in her thirties, with gorgeous hazel eyes, short brown hair and a beautiful smile. i couldnt help admiring her. I know its a stereo-type but because of her huge muscles, short hair and small tattoo on her shoulder I thought she may be lesbian. For some reason I imagined being with her and got mega horny right there in the queue. When my turn came I could hardly speak to her and was breathless. I also really wanted to give her arms a squeeze. I wanted to give her a warm smile but couldnt do it as i was in a mess. I couldnt stop thinking about her that night- or since- and have mastabated loads of times thinking of her. Sex with my bf is better also- as i keep dreaming of her and having massive orgasms! Since i keep making excuses to visit the library and am falling for her in a big way. I have managed to smile at her and she smiles back so gorgeously. The problem is that i am going off my bf. I want this librarian. compared to her my bf is such a wimp too. I have not really been turned on by muscles before but her biceps are so toned and bulging. I am not certain whether she is gay or not and long to know if she is and if she's single. I dont know what to do? I need to do something though as i am in a mess. I dont see myself as being gay either. I was hoping that an outsider may be able to help/advise. thanks for reading xxx