I need some advice!
I'm studying on the law faculty, a third year student, and you can't imagine how much I hate it ! I don't wanna be a lawyer & I won't, but... my parents want me to get a diploma at least. I understand that it'll be very stupid for me to leave a uni, but I have not the smallest motivation/wish to study all this! It was my parent's choice for me to study on that faculty because some years ago I didn't know what profession to choose. I live far from my parents (but with my relatives and that is much worse) because there is a University in this damned town. When I came here I was dreaming of attending some courses to study foreign language but my dreams were failed. There was no any other interest for me, and at that time I knew nothing about law faculty. ... I passed my previous exams like the majority of the students here and I studied the subjects only for three nights max. before the exams thereforeeee... I just wonder what am I doing here..
I can't figure it out what's going on with me now , why I'm so sick of all this after a third (!) year of my "serving" here. This year I haven't been to lectures and seminars for a couple of months since march and I'm not sure that I'll be allowed to take exams. Why all this happening right now?! Yes, it was my choice to follow my parent's advice, they want me to get a good education, but the worst thing is that I can't go on ! I don't know how to make myself to continue the study. And I have a feeling like I'm just wasting my time ](*,) ... I have all what I need and even more, and my only duty is to get a diploma! But I have no wish! I have the opportunities that much of the students don't have and this also make me feel bad, because my parents do for me all they can but I... though this must be point of honour not just to study but to study well ! yes, shame on me... am I the only ungrateful daughter in the world who only creates problems to her parents?..
"vorrei potere non esistere più.."
