For the last two weeks I have barely been getting by. I do the absolute minimum amount of work to stay afloat. I keep putting things off till tomorrow until I am 2 months behind. I don't have any new tragedy in my life. Everything is more or less the same. My love life is in park but tbh its been in park for a long time so that's not new. There's nothing I can point to as a cause of my sadness but I feel this immense weight of the world type of sadness that won't go away. There's nothing that I enjoy that much. I don't want to go out with friends. When I do go out it feels like a huge effort. Just last weekend I spent time with really good friends and everyone had a good time but I feel like I am performing. I haven't been this depressed in a long time. I know it will pass. I just felt like telling someone without telling anyone.