ivywall

You loved me in a way I thought I'd never be loved, and I loved you in a way you always wanted, but didn't thing you'd have. I gave you all of the trust, honesty, and committment any person can ask for. I propped you up when life got hard. I took over any and everything I could to help, I adored you, loved you, cherished you, and in return all I got from you was " I feel differently and need to be alone a while" which has extended to....forever. I would have done anything possible to make you happy, and you kjnow that becaus you experienced it. I don't understand how I was ok to have when life was hard, but when it got mellow, and it could have been US, we could have had some time, more time, when it got mellow you got rid of me and brought in someone new, after "needing independence." My pets are gone, step-kids, home. It's all gone, and all she could give me was "eh, it didn't feel right, and I need to be alone now to process. Really? You couldn't come to me and process with me? Now we're done. Three years gone. No more. Our 7 year friendship for nothing. 10 years of relationships, 3 of which committed, and it's all gone for reasons I don't know and will never understant. You should have left me alone.