I know that you loved me. After all the emails, the lovey notes on my facebook, the notes under my door, holding my hand while nobody was looking so we wouldn't get caught, stealing kisses while nobody was in the room, how much you talked to everyone else about me. I don't doubt that you loved me. But how do you stop loving someone in 1 day? Is that even possible? I know you're not a super emotional person and you feel they are some sort of weekness. That weird stigma about how guys souldn't have emotions and girls should live through them. That's the stupidest thing I've ever heard. You are scared that we are going in different directions later in our lives. But what about right now?!? You don't know the future. You only know your own interests and mine. You know the things that we both WANT to do in the future and so what if they don't add up right now? Two years from now, you have no idea where either of us will be by then. So why do you let yourself rationalize your way through something you don't know the outcome to? It's only been a few days and already all your feelings for me are gone. Maybe, in the end, you didn't actually love me. I do remember you apoligizing for it. For all the pretty pictures you painted for me and for just up and changing your mind out of the blue. You always prided yourself in good communication and you never talked it through with me. Why are you a huge set of double standards? I know I should be happy that we're not together anymore. But even when I found the strength to make a dignified response and let you go for good, I still think about you, I still end up hugging that stupid bear and crying, I still feel sick and throw up my food, I just don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to find that switch that you found to turn off how you feel about me, seemingly overnight, and do the same thing. I want to be as done with you as you are with me.