I am so MAD at you. You led me on and used me. You felt nothing for me. When we met everyone said you were such a nice guy, but you're not. You hurt me so bad and you don't even care. You're a coward because you gave up, and all because it was too hard for you. And you're a liar. Who are you, really? Were you the guy who fell asleep holding my hand and kissed me until my head was spinning and had such fun and laughter with me? Or were you the guy who was cool and dismissive, and never talked about his feelings? That's all I wanted, you know. I held on so long because I wanted, just this once, for someone to tell me that they loved me. Am I so unloveable? You gave me all kinds of hope and then took it all away again. My anger keeps my head up, but when it wears off, all that's left is sadness and emptiness. But what do you care? Oh I know you said you care. But I don't believe you. I wish I could reconcile the two you's that there are, but I can't. I don't know you. I wish you were that man I thought you were... but that man is a coward who gives up just because things are difficult. Me, I never give up. When life throws me a challenge, I kick it in the face. That's why I'll get over this. And you, you will be the one who loses and I am very sorry for you for that. Lastly, Merry Christmas. I miss you.