Windycitygal

OMG I feel the same way. I spent five hours on the phone crying with him. The backstory is in my breakup thread and just.. wow. I feel you so much right now.

I don't understand why you didn't want to be with me as much as I wanted to be with you. I don't understand why you broke up with me when it seemed like the whole time I was the one pursuing you. I don't understand why you promised you'd include me more and then when you broke up with me, you said you'd be sure to include any new girlfriends. That hurt so much. I am broken. Shattered. I wish you would apologize for taking so much of my self-esteem away. I feel like you should have seen from the get-go what good of a catch I was and scoop me up. Instead, I had to convince you. I don't understand that. I don't understand why when I was upset at you not including me or showing me you cared for me during the beginning of our relationship you told me if I wanted someone emotional I needed to either date "a woman or a gay guy." I don't understand so many things... I am *such* a good person. I am smart, beautiful, funny and caring. I cared so much for you and would have moved a mountain to see you, yet you wanted to prolong our long distance relationship by another 4 months just to take more time off to travel alone. I don't understand why, if you loved me so much, you didn't follow me when I moved back to NY. Especially if you wanted "so much" to be with me and start a life. Yeah, I'm sure you did. I don't understand why you weren't ready to be with me...