Dear 'Sara,'
I've really been missing you over this past month...and I miss you now. I love you with all of my heart. I wish we were still together. I need to reach a place where I wouldn't even take you back, but I'm simply not there yet. I wish you hadn't cheated on me, and I really think we had something special. I wish you realized that, now.
I do appreciate the great times in our relationship...and they always outweighed the bad times...we were a great couple, understanding of each other, and I feel that we both love and miss each other to this day. I don't know how you could just throw it away like that...it meant everything to me, and I think it meant more to you than you might have let on.
It drives me crazy that I'm not in contact with you right now. I miss you. I miss the way you made me feel. I miss you. I miss us.
This too shall pass. I just wish that things hadn't worked out the way they did. I'll never understand...and I guess ultimately I don't really want to understand...and don't want you back. But right now, my heart is overpowering my mind. I love you.
But I won't contact you. I won't get sucked back in. I'm going to get through this.