lilianjames

I am not sure what to write. You're in my head some times. That's all. So, do you have any exact time line when I would actually get over you? Any idea?

I want someone who could be around a little while longer. I am feeling this emptiness inside of me. I don't know how and where to go from here. I know I can't find someone to fix me or to fill up the space that was left in void for so long. hope is not something I have right now. Hope is not something I could spare. My greatest achievement lately is about being able to wake up in the morning, find something to occupy myself. Perhaps, the greater achievement of that is perhaps, to get you to think of me. Even in a fleeting second. I don't know how to go from here. Tell me how to go from here. I don't need your heart, I don't need your undying love, I don't need you to tell me that you love me. Just tell me how to go from here. Tell me, please. I can accept the weird part of you, I can accept your weaknesses and your strength. But I know accepting is an act of thoughts. It is not an action. I can't go further than that. Tell me. How do I go from here?

Unrequited love is the worst sort of thing. This feeling of longing and waiting for you to say something and nothing in return. Those days sitting in the coffee place looking around to catch a glimpse of you, that was for few months. The sight of you made me out of breath. There are so many useless things I wanted to tell you how your very presence made me feel.. Well, it's pointless. Sweetheart, I am not blaming you for your silence on this matter. I am not and I was not. It's your prerogative to decline and decline you did. I am not blaming you for exercising your rights and it is your heart to give away. Yours. I am sorry that I took this long to understand that. I am sorry that it took me so long to accept. I am defeated. I know with a hundred percent certainty that we will never, ever see each other again. Pain heals with time. And I will.

I'm letting you go, sweetheart.

Your silence was the answer.

I did it. I cut off a way to be available in every network there could be. I let you go. Sweetheart, I let you go.