samy

I don't hate you but thanks to you I hate myself. I don't miss you but I feel lonely and devoid of hope of finding love again. I really regret too many things that perhaps were normal everyday things that you blew out of proportion, even so I should have understood you but I never did. Shouldn't have been impatient for your inefficiency, your self-consciousness, your laziness, you used to say you will miss me if I am not with you anymore. I don't miss you exactly but I do miss all the years I was with you, doing sacrifices and efforts for somebody who at the end didn't really love me. Maybe you would still be with me if I didn't nag you for helping me out but cheated on you. Well, who knows? What I do know is that you have ruined my best years and my chances to happiness. ThanK you. I just hope you have some disappointments and will realise I was not bad at all.

I don't think am worse off without you. Hope you find somewhere soon. Another night when you said awful things about me and us. My stomach is in pieces. To add more problems you rescued a kitten today, I trained you well in this, I like this if you she is lovely but she is unwell and now I am so woodied we have to wait for tomorrow for the vet and you get annoyed with me for this. Hateful person and yes I do think you are right when you say you are a deadbeat and a failure, yes you are actually because you complain only, do something to better yourself and your career